Third-gender Artist Model
22 years experience as a life drawing artist's model
50 years as a submissive sissy femboy
I identify as a:
Pre-Op homosexual transsexual
berdache/third-gender type
100% female-roled receptive male
Preferential "Class X" submissive 100% female-roled receptive zoosexual from 1970-2000
(I became celibate as a zoosexual in 2000)
I consider my core identity to be a submissive Preferential female-roled receptive zoosexual for large intact male dogs and intact male equines.
Psychologically I have a "Pre-Op" Male to Female Homosexual Transexual Identity
The reason I refer to myself as "third-gender" is because I am physically a male, yet psychologically I feel like a female.
I've been a owned-collared "free Use" submissive, 100% female-roled femboy
since 1975
I got caged in 1999, I am 100% psychologically feminized/emasculated
"In 2000 I started serving only human males sexual"
("I only model wearing a cage")
This is a Web Journal
It is intented to figure my own self out better, why I am who I am
though this is the exhibitionistic
element for me
because I am a
"exhibitionist"
I truly love modeling and modeling for artist has no erotic element for me.
My questions I've struggled with all my life,
why do I need treated sexually like a female.
"And wish to be Female"
Many questions
The content is intended for educational, research and journaling purposes Much of the content is in Scenario Form
thus whether fact or fiction, is by interpretation.
If only;
"How things could of turned out dilemma"
"Like a thought experiment of sorts"
or
" Some aspects based on fact "
" A hodgepodge script "
"Thought experiment"
"Like an Actor preparing for a script in order to be convincing"
"A Study and Outline for my Novels;
fiction novel: "The Jensen Group"
and
"No One needs to be an another more then the Transsexual, No One needs another more then the Exhibitionist"
(a life as a submissive female-roled receptive zoosexual)
" As much as Life Drawing can express Reality, it can express Fantasy "
NSFW
contains nudity and sexual content
A journey of "Living vicariously in a imagined scenario"
All videos, photos, gifs
are for illustrative purposes
established
FEBRUARY 19th, 2020
Contact at;
note: most of the imagery on my site is for illustrative purposes to illustrate how I became completely psychologically feminized/emasculated and how my identity revolves around the need to be female-roled both sexually and non-sexually.
Forever editing the site
Owned
Free-Use Submissive
"I need to feel that I belong to my partners"
Being a owned,
free-use submissive sissy is my role in life
(male concubine/ berdache)
Concubinage is an interpersonal and sexual relationship between two people in which the couple does not want to, or cannot, enter into a full marriage.
I want and need to be told to serve, I need to be wanted!
There are some characteristics of the sexual practices of berdache, which differ from those of other same sex relationships. Berdaches almost always observe an incest taboo which involves the avoidance of sex with another berdache. One explanation for this is that sexual partner of the berdache must, by nature, be masculine (93). This belief is consistent with the emphasis on the gender aspects of the role rather than the sexual aspects. It also dovetails with the information on berdache marriages to masculine men. In these unions, the berdache is considered a wife and is valued by the husband not only for the domestic duties the berdache performs, but also for the socially acceptable homosexual relationship.
In a sense, Native American cultures have institutionalized and socially sanctioned homosexual relations by utilizing the berdache role as the preferred same sex partner. When men want to have male/male sex, they are encouraged to do so with a berdache (95).
The usual sexual behavior of the berdache is to take the passive role in anal intercourse. At times they may indulge in oral sex or take the active role in anal intercourse, but this is not widely talked about. If a berdache wishes to take an active role, it is usually done only in secret and with a partner who can be trusted not to talk. This is also true of the feelings of the man involved with a berdache. If he wishes to assume the passive role, he will try to keep the activity secret.
Another distinctive aspect of berdache sex is that during foreplay and actual intercourse they generally do not like to have their genitals touched. ".... Intercourse with an alyha is surrounded by an etiquette to which the partner had better conform; or else the man could get in all sorts of trouble. Kuwal, a Mohave man who had several alyha as wives, said "they insisted on having their penis referred to as cunnus (clitoris) (97)." ".... I never dared touch the penis in erection except during intercourse. You'd court death otherwise, because they would get violent if you play with their erect penis too much (98)."
(I am very much "Genitally Avoidant", the main reason I always wear a cock cage)
Berdaches frequently are available for sex with both unmarried adolescent boys and married men who occasionally seek out same sex partners.
Because of this, female prostitution is not needed. Traditional berdaches were also available as sexual partners during hunts and in war parties (102). This was yet another reason why they were welcomed on these excursions.
What is Free Use?
Free Use is a type of dynamic, whether perpetual or situational, where my partners can use me however, whenever, and wherever they want.
This type of dynamic removes nearly consent entirely.
There is a understanding about limits and such, but this is a dynamic you only give to those I trust will treat you well.
If you are giving your partners free use of you sexually, they better be partners you know will have your well-being in mind and so on.
By getting used by the males for their sexual pleasure, it is greatly self affirming in that, it affirms my ability to serve as a "surrogate female-roled sex partner" for them.
By getting used sexually it greatly feminizes and emasculates me.
I have always been a hypersexual type so I want sex as often as possible in the female receptive role only, I have always been 100% female roled.
I want to completely satisfy and please my male partners as best I can, and want them to know I am always ready to serve them any time they want me.
Free-Use submissive
"Owned, collared and caged"
My life's role has always been to please
my male partners sexually
Since a very young age I've had a insatiable desire to suck cock
and to be penetrated anally by males
As a Jensen group "harem sissy" the kindest thing the Jensen group guys can do for me is to use me often for sex.
By using me for sex, it affirms for me that I am wanted and valued for my sexual value.
"I very much want to be objectified sexually"
All I have ever wanted to do is serve others sexually
Once I was 12, I was then able to become a exclusively a female roled zoosexual until 2000
Since 2000 I have been completely dedicated to sexually serving all male members of the Jensen group
"95% of Jensen group members a black"
"I try to be the best cock sucker I can be"
To me it is extremely important to swallow my male lover's semen, eagerly show him that I'm his loyal dedicated free-use submissive sex partner
I need to be able to deep-throat
