

Third-gender Artist Model
22 years experience as a life drawing artist's model
50 years as a submissive sissy femboy
I identify with:
Berdache/Travesties of Brazil (transgendered prostitutes)
third-gender type
100% female-roled receptive male
I'm completely psychologically feminized/emasculated
1970 to 2000,
I was nearly exclusively a female-roled
receptive sex partner for large intact Male dogs,
jack donkeys and stallion ponies



Third-Gender Identity
I am not a Man or Woman
Psychologically I have a "Pre-Op" Male to Female Homosexual Transexual Identity
The reason I refer to myself as "third-gender" is because I am physically a male, yet psychologically I feel like a female.
"I wish I was Female"
I've been a owned-collared "free Use" submissive, 100% female-roled femboy
since 1978 as Jensen Group harem sissy
I got caged in 1999, I am 100% psychologically feminized/emasculated

("I only model wearing a cage")
It is intented to figure my own self out better, why I am who I am
though this is the exhibitionistic
element for me
because I am a
"exhibitionist"
I truly love modeling and modeling for artist, has no erotic element for me.
My questions I've struggled with all my life,
why do I need treated sexually like a female.
"And wish to be Female"
Living with the complexity of my sexual orientation as a,
"Preferential female-roled receptive zoosexual"
The content is intended for educational, research and journaling purposes Much of the content is in Scenario Form
thus whether fact or fiction, is by interpretation.
If only;
"How things could of turned out dilemma"
"Like a thought experiment of sorts"
or
" Some aspects based on fact "
" A hodgepodge script "
"Thought experiment"
My Web Journal
"Like an Actor preparing for a script in order to be convincing"
"A Study and Outline for my Novels;
fiction novel: "The Jensen Group"
and
"No One needs to be an another more then the Transsexual, No One needs another more then the Exhibitionist"
" As much as Life Drawing can express Reality, it can express Fantasy "
note: most of the imagery on my site is for illustrative purposes to illustrate how I became completely psychologically feminized/emasculated and how my identity revolves around the need to be female-roled both sexually and non-sexually.
All videos, photos, gifs
are for illustrative purposes
Forever editing the site
established
FEBRUARY 19th, 2020
A journey of "Living vicariously in a imagined scenario"
"wishing I was female"

Contact at;

Identifying with Berdache

The term berdache originates from the Arabic word bardaj (“slave” or “kept boy”). That word spread into western Europe, as a result of contact with the Muslim world, and became the Spanish term bardaxa/bardaje (person engaging in sodomy) and then the French term bardache (a boy kept by a pederast). While the Spanish and French originally used the term for male transvestites or the passive partner in sex between males, anthropologists later applied the term berdache to American Indians who assumed the dress, social status, and role of the opposite sex. britannica.com
Citation
Callender, C., & Kochems, L. M. (1983). The North American berdache. Current Anthropology, 24(4), 443–470. https://doi.org/10.1086/203030
Abstract
Describes the berdache among North American Indians as a person, usually male, who was anatomically normal but assumed the dress, occupations, and behavior of the other sex to effect a change in gender status. This shift was not complete; rather, it was a movement toward a somewhat intermediate status that combined social attributes of males and females. The ritual roles of male berdaches rested on their definition as nonwomen. While it was not a status instituted for homosexuals, homosexuality was a reflex of assuming the status rather than a factor promoting its assumption. The authors' discussion focuses on issues of distribution, numbers, transvestism, occupations, warfare, sexuality, ontogeny, and social positions concerning the berdache. Comments by 15 authors are included, to which the present author responds by grouping the information and opinions into 3 topical categories: the berdache institution itself, methodology, and explanatory hypotheses. (French, Spanish & Russian abstracts) (231 ref) (PsycINFO Database Record (c) 2017 APA, all rights reserved)
Biologically male berdache were also themselves often sexually active with male tribal members, these interactions being considered something separate from normal homosexual encounters. This is because Native American sexual encounters were often split into procreative and non-procreative categories, as opposed to hetero/homosexual, and male encounters with berdache were simply seen as non-procreative (Roscoe 1998).

How I came to learn of the berdache role
A why I started referring to myself as: "female-roled receptive"
I was reading Albert Einsteins book "Ideas and Opinions", and came across what he'd wrote on page 52 and about how he recommended reading Ruth Benedict's book "Patterns of Culture"
age 13

"Patterns of Culture"


Learning of the berdache type males by way of Ruth Benedict's book at this time in my life was a great affirmation of my role as a young male who wished to be like a female.
It was especially up-lifting of my spirits at this time due the fact that I'd been "outed" at school and publicly humiliated for being a effeminate homosexual who was sucking guys cocks and letting guys butt-fuck me.
So I now had something to tell others/a response, class mates/anybody asked me about being effeminate homosexual.
I tell others that I was similar to the "berdache" of the North American Native tribes, and I was female-roled and I only wanted to serve males sexually like I'm a female.



Below/above are images of how I wish I could dress in public




If not for the public humiliation,
I'd prefer to dress like a female when out in public








I've always very much wished I could get pregnant.
I love having my hair in pig-tails, because it helps me feel feminine, yet going out in public just gets to many stares etc., so I don't.
