Third-gender Artist Model
22 years experience as a life drawing artist's model
50 years as a submissive sissy femboy
I identify with:
Berdache/Travesties of Brazil (transgendered prostitutes)
third-gender type
100% female-roled receptive male
I'm completely psychologically feminized/emasculated
Third-Gender Identity
I am not a Man or Woman
Psychologically I have a "Pre-Op" Male to Female Homosexual Transexual Identity
The reason I refer to myself as "third-gender" is because I am physically a male, yet psychologically I feel like a female.
"I wish I was Female"
I've been a owned-collared "free Use" submissive, 100% female-roled femboy
since 1978 as Jensen Group harem sissy
I got caged in 1999, I am 100% psychologically feminized/emasculated
("I only model wearing a cage")
It is intented to figure my own self out better, why I am who I am
though this is the exhibitionistic
element for me
because I am a
"exhibitionist"
I truly love modeling and modeling for artist, has no erotic element for me.
My questions I've struggled with all my life,
why do I need treated sexually like a female.
"And wish to be Female"
Many questions
The content is intended for educational, research and journaling purposes Much of the content is in Scenario Form
thus whether fact or fiction, is by interpretation.
If only;
"How things could of turned out dilemma"
"Like a thought experiment of sorts"
or
" Some aspects based on fact "
" A hodgepodge script "
"Thought experiment"
My Web Journal
"Like an Actor preparing for a script in order to be convincing"
"A Study and Outline for my Novels;
fiction novel: "The Jensen Group"
and
"No One needs to be an another more then the Transsexual, No One needs another more then the Exhibitionist"
" As much as Life Drawing can express Reality, it can express Fantasy "
note: most of the imagery on my site is for illustrative purposes to illustrate how I became completely psychologically feminized/emasculated and how my identity revolves around the need to be female-roled both sexually and non-sexually.
All videos, photos, gifs
are for illustrative purposes
A journey of "Living vicariously in a imagined scenario"
"wishing I was female"
Forever editing the site
established
FEBRUARY 19th, 2020
Contact at;
Gender identity disorder/ Gender dysphoria
Gender dysphoria is distress arising from the mismatch between one's gender identity and aspects of one's body, social role, and lived experience that are tied to one's assigned sex.- Wikipedia
In a Nut Shell gender dysphoria for myself
is always wanting to be the gender that I am Not
"A Life of living Vicariously"
Vicariously: experiencing or realizing through imaginative or sympathetic participation in the experience of another
The Constant Need for Gender Affirmation
"Having sex with Male in a 100% receptive role is how I Affirm my femininity"
Watching My Mom having Sex at age 7
After watching Mom having sex with her boyfriends night after night
I simply knew I wanted to be like her in that sexual way.
"I early on Knew that I wanted to be treated sexually like Mom was by Men"
Gender-affirming Erotic Expression
Jun 30
Are your erotic experiences constrained by what you perceive to be expected or appropriate for your gender or sex? Gendering specific sexual behaviors may be more or less important for each individual. If you experience specific sexual behaviors and dynamics through a gendered expression, this may feel limiting or could be empowering. If you were not worried about judgment from yourself or your partner, would you want to engage in different sexual dynamics or behaviors that would feel like a more authentic expression of your gender?
Sexual experiences that are gender-affirming allow us to authentically give and receive pleasure, which deepens our connection with our partner and ourselves. It is not uncommon, however, to feel reluctant in discussing your gendered sexual expression with your partner, since this requires significant emotional vulnerability. You might fear that your partner will judge you or be unaccepting of your forms of erotic expression. If you and your partner are able to have meaningful conversations about your desires, you can decide together how you can share erotic experiences that offer a profound connection between you.
On the other hand, engaging in sexual experiences that are not gender affirming can often lead to distress. Although we may experience physical arousal in these instances, the emotions associated with the experience can generate feelings of deep inner discomfort, creating a misalignment between our emotional and physical responses. If our physical response to sexual stimuli does not align with our emotional or psychological state, we are experiencing arousal non-concordance.
Just because our bodies may physically respond or become aroused does not mean that the experience is affirming or consensual. True consent entails actively seeking and obtaining enthusiastic agreement from all parties involved. It requires creating an environment where individuals feel that their desires, sexual expressions, and gender identities are valid.
Through gender-affirming sexual experiences, we create a space of authenticity and vulnerability that fosters deep arousal and connection with our partners. If this topic feels complex and important in your relationship, consider whether processing with a sex therapist would be beneficial.
Embrace Gender-affirming Erotic Expression for Authentic Connection — Dr Teresa Johnson PLLC
Having Sex in a Gender‑Affirming Way
You can have sex in any way that feels authentic, safe, and consensual for you — and gender‑affirming sex is about choosing activities, language, and expressions that align with your gender identity and comfort.
What “gender‑affirming” means in sex
Gender‑affirming intimacy is about making sexual experiences support your sense of self. This can include:
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Choosing activities that feel right for you — sex doesn’t have to involve genitals, and you don’t have to want certain types of sex to be “real” in your gender.
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Using language and pronouns that feel good — you can adapt names for body parts, pronouns, or terms in foreplay to match your comfort.
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Wearing or using gender‑affirming items — clothing, sex toys, or prosthetics (like strap‑ons or pack‑and‑plays) can help you feel more aligned during intimacy.
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Exploring solo or partnered — masturbation can help you discover what feels good with a partner.
Having a Penis
antagonism, incongruence, invaluable or useless, the symbolism of self being a male
In the juxtaposed view of myself above, I clearly want myself to look as I am on the right side, yet I don't.
Exhibitionism in the male
Male gender identity requires separation from his mother psychologically
Psychoanalytical theories – these theories posit that male gender identity requires separation from his mother psychologically so that he does not identify with her as a member of the same sex.
A big Problem I had and still don't understand
It's undeniable that I was a practicing Exhibitionist,
yet I honestly don't know why.
1. I do know that I wasn't interested in being with the females sexually that I would expose myself too.
Luckily I started model nude for Art Classes in 1996,
and was able to give up my exhibitionist ways of exposing myself too unsuspecting ladies.
I must say I was worried that I might become sexually aroused and get a erection when I first began modeling nude in from of the ladies in the art classes, yet I found I had no sense of being sexually aroused.
My role Affirmation
has always come by me getting fucked and sucking cock
and
begging the guys to fuck the man out of me!
"I want the guys to fuck me hard so every ounce of maleness is fucked out of me"
"I need the affirmation from the Men that I'm a good sissy slut"