Third-gender Artist Model
22 years experience as a life drawing artist's model
50 years as a submissive sissy femboy
I identify with:
Berdache/Travesties of Brazil (transgendered prostitutes)
third-gender type
100% female-roled receptive male
I'm completely psychologically feminized/emasculated
Third-Gender Identity
I am not a Man or Woman
Psychologically I have a "Pre-Op" Male to Female Homosexual Transexual Identity
The reason I refer to myself as "third-gender" is because I am physically a male, yet psychologically I feel like a female.
"I wish I was Female"
I've been a owned-collared "free Use" submissive, 100% female-roled femboy
since 1978 as Jensen Group harem sissy
I got caged in 1999, I am 100% psychologically feminized/emasculated
("I only model wearing a cage")
It is intented to figure my own self out better, why I am who I am
though this is the exhibitionistic
element for me
because I am a
"exhibitionist"
I truly love modeling and modeling for artist, has no erotic element for me.
My questions I've struggled with all my life,
why do I need treated sexually like a female.
"And wish to be Female"
Many questions
The content is intended for educational, research and journaling purposes Much of the content is in Scenario Form
thus whether fact or fiction, is by interpretation.
If only;
"How things could of turned out dilemma"
"Like a thought experiment of sorts"
or
" Some aspects based on fact "
" A hodgepodge script "
"Thought experiment"
My Web Journal
"Like an Actor preparing for a script in order to be convincing"
"A Study and Outline for my Novels;
fiction novel: "The Jensen Group"
and
"No One needs to be an another more then the Transsexual, No One needs another more then the Exhibitionist"
" As much as Life Drawing can express Reality, it can express Fantasy "
note: most of the imagery on my site is for illustrative purposes to illustrate how I became completely psychologically feminized/emasculated and how my identity revolves around the need to be female-roled both sexually and non-sexually.
All videos, photos, gifs
are for illustrative purposes
A journey of "Living vicariously in a imagined scenario"
"wishing I was female"
Forever editing the site
established
FEBRUARY 19th, 2020
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Early childhood homosexual initation
&
becoming a catamite boy/female-roled receptive zoosexual
My first actual sexual experiences were, 1. performing fellatio on my jack donkey Edward and ingesting his semen at age 7...... 2. being penetrated and locked in a copulatory-tie with my Great Dane Cosso age 8.
Once I started performing fellatio and ingesting semen it became very often and routine not only with Edward my jack donkey, I soon asked a older 12 year old friend if I could suck his penis, he allowed me to, doing that for him came quite routine as well.
My curiosity/desire to suck cock came from watching my Mom,
My Mom and Dad divorced when I was 6 years old, once Dad moved out of the house, Mom had her boyfriends (all were black guys) coming to our house and having sex with her nearly the nightly.
We lived in a very small house, it only had two bedrooms and one bathroom, my bedroom had two doors, the main door opened into a tiny hallway right by the bathroom, the other door opened directly into Mom's bedroom.
Because it was a shorter distance to the bathroom, Mom and her boyfriends would walk through my bedroom naked, thinking I was asleep, yet if I was it would awake me yet I pretend to be asleep as I peeked out at them. They nearly never would completely shut the doors, thus I hop up once they all were back in Mom's room and making the noise of having sex. Mom always had one of her night stand's lights on, thus when they were having sex I could clearly watch them through the slightly open door into Mom's room.
After watching Mom performing fellatio on the guys and seeing the guys walking through my bedroom naked, seeing their big semi-erect cocks swaying about, I guess it was so dramatic, yet I knew I wanted to suck cock like Mom was doing.
This went on for about a year, then one nice summer day when I was with Edward my jack donkey in the stables, I caught him sucking his own penis.
I watched Edward a minute then I dropped to my knees next to him and he allowed me to take his penis in my mouth, I eagerly sucked it until he ejaculated in my mouth, I eagerly swallowed all of his semen, after that I sucked Edward's penis nearly every day.
Age 7
I started wearing a pair of Mom's panty hose routinely under my jeans
age 7
First time viewing a Adult magazine
age 8
The boarding stables were my jack donkey stayed was about a 5 minute bike ride, from the stables about a 1/4 mile the road went over the creek, a huge steel culvert ran under the road for the creek to run through, there I could hide my bike then hike on down stream to the beaver pond. As I was getting my bike rolled into the culvert I noticed a magazine laying right near the edge of the culvert, so after getting my bike into the culvert so it would be out of site I went and picked up the magazine. Instantly looking at the cover I knew it was a adult magazine, once I started turning the pages, it wasn't long before there on the page before me was a lady sucking a man's cock, I was a like a certainty, an instinct, vicariously I wanted to be like her!.
I started sucking my friend Kevin's penis
age 8
My chance came in early June when my friend Kevin and I were skinny dipping in the beaver pond, Kevin had climbed out of the water and sat down on a large fallen log at the edge of the pond. I couldn't take my eyes off Kevin's large man size cock hanging between his legs as I swam over to be by him, and climbed out. Kevin was 12 years old, it was like I was under a spell, I simply asked him if I could suck his cock, he said, "ok", I was instantly down on my knees in front of him, then I eagerly took his cock in my mouth, I felt so good to finally have a guys cock in my mouth, like my ultimate dream coming true I remember. Kevin was so wonderful and kind, so I was lucky to have him for my first experience, he told me what felt good as I licked and sucked, told me to watch my teeth so I didn't cause him discomfort, then when he was ready to ejaculate he told me to hold his cock head just a in front of my open mouth so he could watch as his semen shot into my mouth and so not to gag me.
Seeing Kevin in suck pleasure, hearing him moan, then taking his semen in my mouth was so wonderful to me.
As Kevin and I walked back to the stables I told him about how I been watching Mom having sex with her boyfriend's ever since Mom and Dad had gotten a divorce, and last year soon after first watching her and the guys having sex, I desperately wanted to experience sucking a penis like Mom, then one day at the stables Edward was sucking his own penis as I watched, then like a instinct I was down on my knees sucking Edward's penis.
After that first time that of sucking Kevin's penis, it became a routine thing that happened between us if we had the chance, so if I was able I would go to his house after school because both his parents worked until 5pm, school got out at 3pm.
My Great Dane Cosso allows me to perform fellatio on him and ingest his semen for the first time
My Great Dane Cosso studs me and gets me in copulatory tie
-My first time to be penetrated anally-
I'd say that other than the yelping and gasping that Cosso was causing me to do as he wildy studded me, in less than 30 seconds his huge knot was swollen up inside my butt, I was firmly locked together with him, felt completely helpless, completely overwhelmed, panicky in that how long would we be lock together be I knew mom would be home soon.
Mainly though, I knew that I'd done something intensely life changing and far beyond the point of return, luckily Cosso was calm as he stood behind me, with us butt to butt, myself still on my hands and knees and quivering intensely as Cosso's penis throbbed deep up inside me.
-I knew then my fate, my role was sealed to be a female-roled receptive zoosexual-
Mom catches me and Cosso locked up in a copulatory-tie
age 8
About a week after and I locked up in a copulatory-tie that first time, Mom opened my bedroom door moments after Cosso had me locked in a tie, Mom just pulled the door shut and many days pasted and she didn't say a word about it. (later I would find out from Mom that she at that time was getting bred by Jensen group dogs, and had been getting bred by Cosso).
4th grade
routinely start wearing panty hose
I'd been routinely wearing a pair of Mom's panty hose under my jeans since 2nd grade, however I attended 4th grade at a entirely different and much larger school, well at this school we had a regularly gym classes which was a new thing, we had to change into gym shorts and shirt which we kept in an assigned cubby hole. As usual, how I had been for previous 2 years, I'd put my panty hose on as usual when dressing for school, then when gym class came around, here I was changing my clothes where everyone could see and I had to explain why I was wearing panty-hose, it was very embarrassing to say the least, I never whore panty hose when going to school after that!
One day I opened to door to the bathroom while Mom was showering, she looked at me, and said, Michael would you get your clothes off and get in the shower with me and wash my back", I did as she asked.
After that day, if I was around when she was going to shower, she'd tell me to shower with her.
I begin to incessantly wish/desire that I had a vagina/pussy
age 8
My desire to have a vagina grew more and more intense as I grew older
My first time getting butt-fucked by a human Male
age 9
The large house across the road goes up for sale, Mom buys it and so we move across the road
age 11
I start sucking my own penis
age 11
Sucking my own penis becomes my method of masturbating, and is fequent
Mom catches me sucking my own penis
Mom didn't say anything, she just closed the door, expecting her to talk to me about it later, that talk never came, it was though nothing happened.
7th grade
age 12
I was in 7th grade, age 12 going to a whole new school, larger and with many new students, 7 through 9 grades, plus a open shower policy for gym class, I was very nervous about the open shower policy that due the fact that I knew I was sexually attracted to guys, and the "not knowing how I would react" to seeing all these fellow male students nude.
There were also a lot black students in this new school, where my middle school had just a few black students, there were many more black guys here at this new school.
My the first week there, I was sitting on the bench in front of my locker which was near the open showers, and I glanced into the showers and I could clearly see Rod, one of the black guys in my gym class showering, he had the biggest cock I'd ever seen, I was staring at him, I couldn't help myself from staring at it, well Rod caught me staring at him. As I still was sitting on the bench tying my shoes, Rod walked to me, stood in front of me, there 2 feet right in front of my face was Rod's huge semi-erect cock, I looked up at him and meekly said "hi", Rod replied "you want to suck it don't you, I know a fairy when I see one", looking at his penis in front of me, I meekly replied, "it just is so big, don't know", then I looked down embarrassed.
Rod replied, "you mean you don't know, why?".
I meekly replied, "I guess I just met you kinda thing, I guess"
Rod, "well you see what I have to offer, and I'm needing a fairy to start sucking it a regular basis".
For the following weeks, different fellow male students would approach me and say things like, "I hear you love to suck cock", or maybe "so you take cock up your butt" etc. I'd just ignore them best I could.
Then one day while I was walking down the hall along with many other students headed to their next class, suddenly Rod came up behind me and whispered in my ear, "Michael, I want you to start sucking my big black cock, you know you want it", I just kept walking and didn't reply, I thought for sure Rod was the one who started the rumor about me being homosexual.
After that, in gym class Rod started asking me everyday things like "have you sucked cock yet, if you haven't I'd be surprised because I know you want to suck cock, I can tell you're a fairy", after several days of his bothering me, I replied, "yes I'm a fairy", Rod replied, " so I was right, you have sucked cock haven't you?".
I meekly replied, " yes, been sucking cock regularly since I was about 8 years old".
Rod asked me, "have you had cock up inside your butt yet?.
I told him, "yes regularly since I was 8 years old, never a huge cock like yours though".
Rod replied, "yeah it is 10 inches long, I'll be nice and gentle to you though, do you like to swallow cum, I do want you to start you sucking my cock regularly, I'm looking for steady fairy, who likes sucking and getting butt-fucked often".
I replied meekly, "I do really want to suck your cock, swallow your cum and have your cock up in my bottom, I very much want and need to feel like a girl, be treated like a girl by guys".
Rod replied, "I'll treat you like a girl, you can suck my cock everyday if you want or more, if you ready to suck my cock, meet me in the woods behind the dairy at 4pm and you can suck it and I'll help you feel like a girl from now on".
Well after I got home from school at 3pm, all I knew was I wanted to suck his cock so much, I got on my bike and rode down to the woods behind the dairy and sure enough Rod showed up, he rode to me on his bike, then he told me to follow him to a spot in the woods where I could safely suck his cock, once we got to the spot, he unzipped his shorts, pulled out his already huge erect cock and told me to get down and start sucking it, I eagerly did, in less than a minute he was ejaculating in mouth.
After that day Rod had me suck his cock nearly everyday, then;
One day while on my knees in front of Rod he says he needs to pee, then he tells me to open my mouth so he can pee in my mouth and watch me drink it, I do as he says and he begins peeing in my mouth as try to swallow it as quickly as I can, once he is done then I suuck his cock until he ejaculates in my mouth, Rod then tells me that I'm the best sissy slut a guy could ask for.
I felt so pleased that he wanted me and that I could pleasure him
Rod very much had me under his spell, I was ready to do for him anything he wanted me to, after that day, he and I would meet at that same spot every day, I'd perform fellatio on him and swallow his cum, this went on about a week after he'd had me drink his pee, then he told me he had an older friend who would like to have me start sucking his cock as well, and he'd bring him to meet me tomorrow, by that time I was Rod's free-use submissive, I would have done almost anything for him, so I said ok.
Well, the next day, Rod showed up with Steve another black guy from school, they were waiting for me, thus I sucked both of them until they ejaculated in my mouth.
The following day another black guy from school was with Rod, this went on for a couple of weeks until I was sucking 4 different black guys from our school and 5 other older black guys who didn't attend our school yet were good friends of both Rod and Steve.
The 5 older guys had their driver's licenses so we'd start going to different guy's house so they all could gang-bang me.
Rod gives me an 18 inch long double-ended dildo, and a douche bottle.
Rod says to me, " Michael start using this dildo to help get you used to taking big cocks all the way up inside your butt, and help get you clean, lube it with mineral oil, squirt mineral oil up inside your butt, slide the dildo up in you, just repeat over and over again, do it several times a day, all of us guys want to start butt-fucking you as soon as your ready. After a few days of working with the dildo and thinking this will help me be ready for Edward, because I knew was so ready to start getting fucked by Edward my jack donkey, I was able to get all 18 inch of it up inside. I told the guys I was ready, in a week all of them were butt-fucking me as well, I would suck at least one of the 9 after school every day and try to suck all of them on the weekend, as well as get butt-fucked by them during our interaction, 3 or 4 or all 9 of them gang-banged at times.
Getting outed at school
I was just walking down the busy hallway when I heard someone yell, "Michael loves to suck cock", I tried to see who it was, yet was unable to, and I didn't recognize their voice, the news of this spread like wild-fire, so within a few days I could only assume everyone that knew me now knew that I was homosexual.
This was a slow traumatizing, as for week to come I'd hear fellow students whispering about me, some even talking out loudly so others could hear that I was homosexual.
I certainly felt so Pathetic at that time in 1970's being a homosexual transgender type male
( feeling pathetic makes me become masochistic exhibitionist)
(so preparing/cleaning my bottom so I could be bred became a major component of my daily life)
Professor Sam Vaknin discusses auto-eroticism, exhibitionism, and submissiveness in sex
The exhibitionist objectifies him/herself by being observed, by being watched, by having an audience. And having objectified him/herself, they find the resulting object extremely sexually arousing.
And of course, the more numerous the observers, the better. The more the merrier. The more numerous the observers, the more intense the sexual excitatory state.
So one observer is good. Four observers are much better.
This is why people with auto eroticism, the auto erotic, these people gravitate almost invariably and ineluctably gravitate to group sex, usually with total strangers.
And they do so even in early adolescence.
The earliest case I've heard of was 12 years old, a girl, 12 years old, who had group sex with a group of men she had met that day.
"I've have craved to be gang-banged every since"
(only Jensen group guys, after 1974 the human Males I had sex with were Jensen group guys)
After I'd started sucking the guys at school 7th grade
I'd become brave and wanted to suck cock constantly
I wrote out many copies of: "Please call me if you would like a blow-job or want to fuck me then my phone number", if I happened to run into a guy that turned me on, I'd just go up to him and hand him one of my notes. It would often work and within a day or so the guy would call me, we'd meet somewhere or he come to my house if Mom wasn't around and I'd give him what he wanted, a blow-job, to fuck me or both.
Once I joined the Jensen group I had no need to search outside the group to find males
that I could serve sexually.
Quite a few of the guys that I been serving before I turn 12 yr, later became Jensen group members, then I was able again to start serving them sexually.
Please call me if you would like a
blow-job
or
want to fuck me
Michael
553-8237
I was very much like "Jennie June"
"performing fellatio"
Jennie June wasn't addicted to getting butt-fucked as I am
I've always felt that Society seen me as Pathetic because I want to be like a girl, have sex with males like a girl, thus I psychologically eroticized being a pathetic sissy male, being objectified sexually had become wonderful for me.
Wrote letter to Mom
age 15
I think I was angry at Mom for never explaining to me why her and dad got a divorce, I felt neglected by her, this compelled me to write a lengthy letter out, this included the topic of the divorce, how I'd been watching her having sex with the guys when we lived in the small house across the road and how I became to know that I wanted to be like a girl, I didn't want to be like a man. How I was sucking many different guys and they were also butt-fucking me now, how I started sucking Edward's penis at age 7, how Cosso started butt-fucking at age 8, and now Edward was butt-fucking me as well. I wrote I needed to quit school because I was outed publicly at school for being a sissy homosexual
Though I didn't come out and say the reason that I'm now a sissy-boy is because of her, yet I hinted it by saying, "what compelled me to want to suck cock?". when she read it, that is how she took it., which I later after her and I talked about the letter, felt bad for writing the letter in that tone as to hurt her feelings.
I hadn't given it to her, she found it on my desk, then read it, then she walked into my room and handed it to me with a very hurt feeling on her face, yet Mom didn't say a word, she just walked away. (which left me in mystery once again)
Mom catches me getting butt-fucked my friend Trent who is 16 years old (black)
Mom catches me spying on her as she gets dressed
Once Mom seen me watching her
This was about a week after Mom caught Trent fucking me,
Mom just stares at me a moment then says, "I bet you'd love to watch Trent fucking me wouldn't you?, just like you liked watching the guys fucking me when we lived across the street",
I meekly replied, "yes",
Mom replied, "why don't you call him right now and let me talk to Trent". then she told me to come on in her room and call from her bedside phone, I did as she asked and sat on the bed, she sat on the bed next to me still completely nude, Trent was home when I called.
I just told Trent that I was here with Mom and she'd like to talk to him, Trent replied, "sure I'll talk to her".
I handed Mom the phone, Mom said, "hi Trent, don't be alarmed I was wondering though sense your 16 years old now, if you be interested in me as well, I mean do the same thing to me?".
Trent replied.....I don't know what he exactly said then Mom replied to him, "yes, you can come over now". then she hung up.
Mom looked at me and said, "Trent is on his way over" she the stood up and said, "I'm going to the bathroom and douche my bottom so I can be good and clean for him", she then walked to the bathroom.
Mom yells from bathroom, "Michael come take a quick shower with me"
I walked in the bathroom, Mom was already in the shower when I walked in.
Mom, "Michael, get naked and get in here with me".
I did as told, and undressed then stepped in the shower with her.
Mom turned and told me to wash her back from neck to feet.
I did as told, once I finished thoroughly washing her back, she turned and told me to wash her front.
I did as told,
Mom looked at my now erect penis, then said, "so it does turn you on to see me naked?".
I meekly replied, "yes"
Mom says, "I been wanting to tell you that I joined Aunt Becky's Jensen group and all the guys that I've been having sex with since your father and I divorced have been with many of the Jensen group guys.
I meekly replied, "I wondered, I have to confess, I very often watched you and the guys having sex when you's left the door slightly open".
Mom replied, "oh my, you've seen me doing a lot then, how did you feel about it?".
I meekly replied, "I really liked seeing you with them, and I want to be like you, I so much want to be a lady like you and do that with men"
Mom replies, "once you turn 16 years old you'll be able to be with all the Jensen group guys as well, you'll then be able to serve all the Jensen group guys 16 years old and older, you can watch me have sex with them any time you wish now though".
I replied, "Trent did tell me that he will be joining a group called the Jensen group that his Parents and you Mom belonged too, and he wouldn't be able to have sex with me again until I joined and get tested for STD'S, only Jensen group members can have sex with other Jensen group members correct?"
Mom, "yes".
I reply, "so you can have sex with Trent then?".
Mom, "No, I can't until he gets his STD test results back, I thought I'd just jack him off, I know Trent's parents I went to school with Trent's Mom Monique, her and I were pretty good friends, still are, actually Monique and I became sexually involved before your father and I divorced, her and I are both bi-sexual, then Patrick, Trent's father started joining us sexually, so they joined the Jensen group when I did, so we all joined right after your Dad moved out". So we need to get your STD test done so you can join, you will not be able to have sex with any of your current friends, yet you can have the group dogs and Edward butt-fuck you, how does that sound?".
I replied, "I actually prefer being with Edward and Cosso, plus I've been sucking all the jack donkeys and ponies at Aunt Becky's for last four years already, and the for last year I been sucking all 20 of the stallions at Susan's stables, can I watch you having sex with both the guys and girls once I'm a Jensen group member?".
Mom says, "yes, I like the idea of you watching me having sex, since your a effeminate homosexual, you might never want to fuck a lady, yet when you turn 16 year if your able/interested you can try so you experience taking the man role.
I reply, " I'd like to try sucking pussy maybe, that isn't manly, Mom you suck Monique's pussy right?, I just don't ever want to use my penis like a man, I've always wanted to be like a girl, I know that I don't ever want anyone sucking my penis".
Mom giggles and says, "yep, I'm a girl and I love to suck Monique's pussy, along with many of the other Jensen group ladies, I been having sex with all the Jensen group men and women, I been getting bred by Aunt Becky's dogs, some of the lady member's dogs and Susan's dogs ever since I joined, I'm what they call a "Harem Girl for the Jensen group".
I replied, "you ever get bred by Cosso?".
Mom, "yes Cosso was studding when he was about a year and a half old, that's the reason we got him, so he is nearly 4 years old now, yet he hasn't studded me since I caught him studding you, I knew you were now, so I figured best not to, once you join the group, if you say it's ok and if Cosso wants to stud me, then I let him start studding me again, once I had joined the group I soon found out that nearly all the Jensen group ladies had a large dog that studded them and they let their dogs stud me routinely".
I replied, "Mom, how many different dogs have you been bred by since you joined".
Mom, "its been 4 years since Monique, Partrick, Trent's dad and I joined, then there were about 200 ladies and 300 men, now there are about 300 Lady and 400 men members, only the ladies have a stud dog, I get bred by about 3 dogs a week currently, I been bred most of the dogs at least once in the last 4 years, Michael, because your an effeminate homosexual and only receptive, you'll be able to get bred by all those dogs as well, I already talked to the Ladies and Aunt Becky about that".
I replied, "does Monique get bred by the dogs, I do know Trent has a big intact male Rottweiler named Tanner".
Mom replied, "yes Tanner studs Monique and myself, actually Tanner and Patrick both studded me last night".
I reply, "Mom are you a submissive type like me".
Mom replies, "yep, both Monique and Partrick are Dominate over me as are all other group male and female members, that is why I am called a "Harem Girl", I wear a collar when with members sexually and I what they call free-use, and I get gang-banged very often, matter of fact I seldom have sex with only one male at a time".
I reply, "yes I love to be gang-banged too, I've been studded by 9 guys before in a gang-bang, how many have you?".
Mom replies, "well every Saturday, I have a gang-bang which lasts 4 hours, all male members are invited of course, I've had every male member over age 16 show up, then it might last longer like 6 hours. One Saturday, nearly all the male members 16 years and older showed up, so able 400 guys studded me in 6 hours, they pull out before they ejaculate in my pussy and cum in my mouth or on my back, the last guy can ejaculate in my pussy or bottom, my tubes are tied, so I can't get pregnant, for example when Trent starts studding me he can cum in my pussy if he wants to".
I reply, "when you think Trent's STD test results will be back, I'm so excited about being able to watch as he studs you".
Mom replies, "yeah I just hope Trent wants me, I'm hoping he can stud me nearly every day if he wants too, we'd best get our robes on and head to the kitchen, Trent should be soon showing up".
Mom and I put our robes on, Mom puts her collar on, the we walk out to the kitchen.
Trent shows up
6 pm
I answer the door and greet Trent, then we sit down with Mom at the kitchen table.
Trent smiling big says, "guess what, Aunt Becky called just as I was leaving, she told me that my STD results came back and I can have sex with Jensen group members now".
Mom(Nina) replies, "Trent would you like have me sexually now?".
Trent replies with a huge smile, "yes, I've wanted to be with you ever since I was about 12 years old!".
Mom replies, "I'm a Harem Girl for the group, that is why I wearing a collar now, I'm also a free-use submissive, you can have sex with me as often as you wish when I'm available, not at work etc. of course. You can use my pussy or butt, you can ejaculate in my mouth and I will swallow your cum, please just tell before you start to ejaculate so as not to gag me, you can ejaculate in my butt or pussy, my bottom is clean and ready now, so if you want to you can try my pussy for awhile, then switch to my butt to finish, just call me SLUT",
Trent gets stripped down completely naked, with his big black beautiful cock hard he walks to Mom and says, "ok SLUT please suck my cock for awhile first".
Mom gets on her knees in from of him and eagerly starts licking his huge hanging balls, taking each one in her mouth then sucking it".
Trent moans as he mutters, "yeah that's a good slut".
Mom licks and kisses her way up his long shaft then takes his big cock head in her mouth and begin sucking it".
I ruby my now erect penis as I watch.
Trent then says, "Nina, stand up and lean on the table, I better get my cock in your pussy in case I cum".
Mom stand and leans on the table, then says, "if you cum in my pussy it is fine, my tubes are tied, I can't get pregnant".
Trent gets behind Mom, holds his cock and gets it started into her pussy, then slowly slides it on up inside her and starts fucking her.
Mom squirts and moans.
Trent says, "Nina, I bet your fucking all the Jensen group 16 years olds lot aren't you?".
Mom meekly says, "yes as often as I can".
Trent says, "Mom and Dad told me you want me to live with and sleep with from now on, is that what you want Nina?"
Mom meekly says, "yes, I want you so much, I've wanted you so bad ever since you were 12 years old, please use me for sex as often as you can, as you want".
Trent replies, "Mom says you love to get gang-banged?".
Mom replies, "yes, if you don't mind".
Trent replies, "thats what sluts are for, Mom said Tanner my dog fucks you as do all the other group dogs".
Mom meekly replies, "yes please just call me "Slut" from now on, all the guys do"
Trent starts moaning, then jerking about, then crys out "I'm cumming".
Trent jerks and shakes as he ejaculates up inside Mom's pussy, after a minute he pulls out.
Trent says, "Slut, get on your knees and lick me clean".
Mom gets on her knees and eagerly licks his entire cock clean, then gently sucks his cock head to get any remaining cum from it.
Mom looks up at Trent and says, "did I do good".
Trent says, "yes, very good, let me rest 10 minutes then I want to fuck you in the ass".
Mom meekly replies, "oh yes, I want to feel you in my butt so much"
I ejaculate myself.
Trent fucked Mom and ejaculate 2 more times, by then it was 8 pm, they then showered and went to bed together.
In the morning at breakfast, Mom and Trent told me that they fucked twice before coming out to breakfast.
Trent moved in full time the next day, it was summer break, and by end of the week Trent was working part-time for Jensen lawn and landscaping".
After I'd been with Trent and Mom as they had sex, Mom allowed me to be present with her when she had sex with anyone, guys, ladies or stud dogs.
Mom and I move out to Jensen group estate
June 1975
Just before school started we put our house up for sale, then Mom, Trent and I moved into a home in one of the Jensen group estates, Mom also wanted me out of my other school because of my being "Outed Publicly" for being homosexual, Trent and I could start attending the Jensen group school, and Mom could quit her job and so she could be a full-time Harem girl for the Jensen group and serve Jensen group members sexually every day, all day.
I could start being with Mom and watch her have sex with the guys,
in away she turned me into her cuckold so and she was my cuckoldress Mom
Cuckoldress
In the reverse double-standard of the cuckolding subculture, the cuckoldress (female) tends to take on the sexually dominant role, and the cuckold (male) the submissive role. Cuckolding can range from verbal fantasy between monogamous partners (e.g., the cuckoldress tells the cuckold about her desire for a more virile man) to alternative lifestyles in which the cuckoldress chooses to experience lovers outside her primary relationship. The cuckold is to remain loyal to the cuckoldress; he is dedicated to meeting her needs no matter how humiliating he finds the process. In fact, the more humiliating the greater the high.
I got my STD test so I could officially be a Jensen group member, we got Edward moved out to Aunt Beckys, luckily he quickly adapted nicely to the 2 jack donkeys and 2 stallion ponies already living at Aunt Becky's farm.
"Only the ladies owned stud dogs and only large breed dogs such as Great Danes, Kangal Shepherds, St. Benard's, Irish Wolf hounds etc."
A cultural aspect of Jensen group members is: "everyone has smoothly shaved pubic hair"
The other two jack donkeys and the two stallion ponies start studding me
I'd already been performing fellatio the 2 jack donkeys and 2 stallion ponies since I was 8 years old.
I'd been using the 18 inch long double-ended dildo that Rod had given me in 7th grade diligently since because I so much wanted Edward to be able to penetrate my bottom and ejaculate up inside me, I now was able to take all 18 inches up inside my bottom easily.
To take the step of being able to get bred by the jack donkeys and stallion ponies a huge event for me, I was very
worried about them not wanting to stud me, yet I felt if they did experience having their penis up inside my bottom they'd like it, thus forever continue stud me, I had to make it work, so I made up a tail on a belt, lead the two other jack donkeys and two stallion ponies into the stable breeding room and tied them up, I then lead Edward into the breeding room, I leaned on the small phantom mare and started wagging my tail, it worked!, within 30 seconds Edward mounted me, had his penis in my butt and he was studding me, and successfully ejaculated up inside my bottom. I then tied Edward up, untied Benny one of the stallion ponies and offer him my bottom he successfully bred me, within about an hour and a half all 5 of them had successfully bred me.
It was summer break, thus I had the time, so for a week at least I take the jack donkeys and stallion ponies individually into the breeding room every morning and have them stud me, the do it again in the evening...then for the rest of the summer I made sure each of them got to stud at least once every day.
I very much wanted to with the large stallions at Susan's farm next door, so my duty was keeping the stables clean and grooming and bathing the stallions daily, there were always 20 stallions it was an exclusively stallion stud farm, Erik who was the horse trainer started teaching me how to collect the stallions semen etc. and he helped me get started with performing fellatio on the stallions so I could ingest their semen, I tried perform fellatio on at least 4 of the stallions daily.
I start getting bred by all the Jensen group dogs
Because I was the only sissy boy and a 100% female-roled receptive zoosexual all the female group member that had dogs allowed me to go to their home so I could start getting bred by their dogs, so after I was done cleaning the stables, some one with a drivers license would take me to one of the Jensen group estates, all of which were in the country and within 5 miles of Aunt Becky's farm, I'd groom and bathe the dogs, then get bred by him, then go to another Ladies home, if there were guys 11 to 16 there I offer to perform fellatio on them and they could also butt-fuck me, if there were girls 11 to 16 years old I'd offer to perform cunnilingus on them.
The majority of girls would have me perform cunnilingus on them, as did the guys allow me to at least perform fellatio on them.
I'd go to as many lady's homes as I could, I have supper usually with the last lady and her family, then someone would take me back to Aunt Becky's, at that time there were about 350 dogs that I was able to get bred by, however not until I graduated from 12 grade could I quit school and become a full time Jensen group harem sissy.
"Once I turned 18 I became a full-time harem sissy and is all I ever was"
All Jensen group members became celibate as zoosexuals in 2000
(only type zoosexual sex that was ever allowed was male canines or equines studding female members and harem sissies)
or
(performing fellatio on the male canines and male equines)
I've always consider being a female-roled receptive zoosexual my true and preferred sexual orientation and identity
My need to feel feminine and female like is so strong that having a canine, equine or human male penis inside my bottom ejaculating was daily constant basic need, I can safely say that ever since age 12, unless I was sick or something, I got bred at least once. yet on average 6-10 times every day since.
