Third-gender Artist Model
22 years experience as a life drawing artist's model
50 years as a submissive sissy femboy
I identify with:
Berdache/Travesties of Brazil (transgendered prostitutes)
third-gender type
100% female-roled receptive male
I'm completely psychologically feminized/emasculated
Third-Gender Identity
I am not a Man or Woman
Psychologically I have a "Pre-Op" Male to Female Homosexual Transexual Identity
The reason I refer to myself as "third-gender" is because I am physically a male, yet psychologically I feel like a female.
"I wish I was Female"
I've been a owned-collared "free Use" submissive, 100% female-roled femboy
since 1978 as Jensen Group harem sissy
I got caged in 1999, I am 100% psychologically feminized/emasculated
("I only model wearing a cage")
It is intented to figure my own self out better, why I am who I am
though this is the exhibitionistic
element for me
because I am a
"exhibitionist"
I truly love modeling and modeling for artist, has no erotic element for me.
My questions I've struggled with all my life,
why do I need treated sexually like a female.
"And wish to be Female"
Many questions
The content is intended for educational, research and journaling purposes Much of the content is in Scenario Form
thus whether fact or fiction, is by interpretation.
If only;
"How things could of turned out dilemma"
"Like a thought experiment of sorts"
or
" Some aspects based on fact "
" A hodgepodge script "
"Thought experiment"
My Web Journal
"Like an Actor preparing for a script in order to be convincing"
"A Study and Outline for my Novels;
fiction novel: "The Jensen Group"
and
"No One needs to be an another more then the Transsexual, No One needs another more then the Exhibitionist"
" As much as Life Drawing can express Reality, it can express Fantasy "
note: most of the imagery on my site is for illustrative purposes to illustrate how I became completely psychologically feminized/emasculated and how my identity revolves around the need to be female-roled both sexually and non-sexually.
All videos, photos, gifs
are for illustrative purposes
A journey of "Living vicariously in a imagined scenario"
"wishing I was female"
Forever editing the site
established
FEBRUARY 19th, 2020
Contact at;
Developing OCD and becoming Masochistic
Causes and Risk Factors
The exact cause of OCD is not fully understood. Research suggests it may involve brain mechanisms that regulate anxiety, genetic factors, and environmental triggers like stress. While all children have intrusive thoughts occasionally, those with OCD find them harder to ignore or dismiss, leading to compulsive behaviors
OCD is an anxiety-related mental health condition where children experience intrusive thoughts or worries that are distressing and difficult to control.
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) usually begins in adolescence or young adulthood and is seen in as many as 1 in 200 children and adolescents. People with OCD have recurrent intense obsessions and/or compulsions that are severely painful and interfere with day-to-day functioning. Obsessions are recurrent and persistent thoughts, impulses, or images that appear without warning, are unwanted, and cause extreme anxiety or distress. Frequently, the thoughts are irrational, without bearing to current happenings. They are not just worries about real-life problems or preoccupations. Compulsions are repetitive behaviors or rituals (like hand washing, keeping things in order, checking something over and over) or mental acts (like counting, repeating words silently, avoiding). In OCD, the obsessions or compulsions must cause significant anxiety or distress, or interfere with the child's normal routine, academic functioning, social activities, or relationships.
The obsessive thoughts may vary with the age of the child and may change over time. A younger child with OCD may have persistent thoughts that harm will occur to himself or a family member, for example an intruder entering an unlocked door or window. The child may compulsively check all the doors and windows of his home after his parents are asleep in an attempt to relieve anxiety. The child may then fear that he may have accidentally unlocked a door or window while last checking and locking, and then must compulsively check over and over again.
An older child or a teenager with OCD may fear that he will become ill with germs, AIDS, or contaminated food. To cope with his/her feelings, a child may develop "rituals" (a behavior or activity that gets repeated). Sometimes the obsession and compulsion are linked; "I fear this bad thing will happen if I stop checking or hand washing, so I can't stop even if it doesn't make any sense."