Third-gender Artist Model
22 years experience as a life drawing artist's model
50 years as a submissive sissy femboy
I identify with:
Berdache/Travesties of Brazil (transgendered prostitutes)
third-gender type
100% female-roled receptive male
I'm completely psychologically feminized/emasculated
Psychologically I have a "Pre-Op" Male to Female Homosexual Transexual Identity
The reason I refer to myself as "third-gender" is because I am physically a male, yet psychologically I feel like a female.
I've been a owned-collared "free Use" submissive, 100% female-roled femboy
since 1978 as Jensen Group harem sissy
I got caged in 1999, I am 100% psychologically feminized/emasculated
("I only model wearing a cage")
It is intented to figure my own self out better, why I am who I am
though this is the exhibitionistic
element for me
because I am a
"exhibitionist"
I truly love modeling and modeling for artist has no erotic element for me.
My questions I've struggled with all my life,
why do I need treated sexually like a female.
"And wish to be Female"
Many questions
The content is intended for educational, research and journaling purposes Much of the content is in Scenario Form
thus whether fact or fiction, is by interpretation.
If only;
"How things could of turned out dilemma"
"Like a thought experiment of sorts"
or
" Some aspects based on fact "
" A hodgepodge script "
"Thought experiment"
My Web Journal
"Like an Actor preparing for a script in order to be convincing"
"A Study and Outline for my Novels;
fiction novel: "The Jensen Group"
and
"No One needs to be an another more then the Transsexual, No One needs another more then the Exhibitionist"
" As much as Life Drawing can express Reality, it can express Fantasy "
note: most of the imagery on my site is for illustrative purposes to illustrate how I became completely psychologically feminized/emasculated and how my identity revolves around the need to be female-roled both sexually and non-sexually.
All videos, photos, gifs
are for illustrative purposes
Forever editing the site
established
FEBRUARY 19th, 2020
A journey of "Living vicariously in a imagined scenario"
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Travesties of Brazil
MALES WHO ENJOY being anally penetrated by other males are, in many places in the world, an object of spe- cial cultural elaboration. Anywhere they occur as a culturally recognized type, it is usually they who are classified and named, not the males who penetrate them (who are often simply called men). Furthermore, to the extent that male same-sex sexual relations are stigmatized, the object of social vituperation is, again, usually those males who allow themselves to be penetrated, not the males who penetrate them. - The Gender of Brazilian Transgendered Prostitutes Author(s): Don Kulick
The following are excerpts from:
One of the basic things one quickly learns from any analysis of Latin American sexual categories is that sex between males in this part of the world does not necessarily result in both partners being perceived as homosexual. The crucial determinant of a homosexual classification is not so much the fact of sex as it is the role performed during the sexual act. A male who anally penetrates another male is generally not considered to be homosexual. He is considered, in all the various local idioms, to be a man"; indeed, in some communities, penetrating another male and then bragging about it is one way in which men demonstrate their masculinity to others (Lancaster 1992:241; cf. Brandes 1981:234)
A conceptual system in which only males who are penetrated are homosexual is clearly very different from the modern heterosexual-homosexual dichotomy currently in place in countries such as the United States, where popular understanding generally maintains that a male who has sex with another male is gay no matter how carefully he may restrict his behavior to the role of penetrator. This difference between Latin American and northern Euro-American understandings of sexuality is analyzed with great insight in the literature on male same-sex relations in Latin America, and one of the chief merits of that literature is its sensitive documentation of the ways in which erotic practices and sexual identities are culturally organized.
The evidence for the arguments developed here will be drawn from my fieldwork in the Brazilian city of Salvador, among a group of males who enJoy anal penetration. These males are effeminized prostitutes known throughout Brazil as travestis (a word derived from transvestir, to cross-dress).4
And most telling of the special place reserved for travestis in the Brazilian popular imagination is the fact that the individual widely acclaimed to be most beautiful woman in Brazil in the mid-1980s was ... a travesti. That travesti, Roberta Close, became a household name throughout the country. She regularly appeared on national television, starred in a play in Rio, posed nude (with demurely crossed legs) in Playboy magazine, was continually in- terviewed and portrayed in virtually every magazine in the country, and had at least three songs written about her by well-known composers. Although her popularity declined when, at the end of the 1980s, she left Brazil to have a sex-change operation and live in Europe, Roberta Close remains extremely well-known.
Travestis want their boyfriends to be men, not viados. They require, in other words, their boyfriends to be symbolically and socially different from, not similar to themselves. Therefore, a travesti does not want her boyfriend to notice, comment on, or in any way concern himself with her penis, even during sex. Sex with a boy-friend, consists, for the most part, of the travesti sucking the boyfriend's penis and of her boyfriend penetrating her, most often from behind, with the travesti on all fours or lying on her stomach on the bed. If the boy-friend touches the travesti at all, he will caress her breasts and perhaps kiss her. But no contact with the travesti's penis will occur, which means, according to most travestis I have spoken to, that travestis do not usually have orgasms during sex with their boyfriends.
"The above excerpt is how I am roled sexually for men and why I identify with the Brazilian Travesti"
On the Science of Changing Sex
Solid Evidence That Pre-Op HSTS Are Genitally “Avoidant”
Posted in Confirming Two Type Taxonomy, Female-to-Male, Transsexual Field Studies by Kay Brown on August 25, 2024
In a study from Spain, a team looked at sexual behavior of both MTF and FtM transsexuals before medical transition services. Given that this was from Spain, I made a little bet with myself that since I have noted before in other papers that very few gynephilic transwomen transition there, this study would show the same trend, in spite of it being a relatively individualistic culture. And indeed this was case, with only two of the 147 transwomen indicating that they were exclusively gynephilic and only five that they were bisexual. Of course, as always, some may be misrepresenting their sexual orientation. In fact, given that the average age of intake at the clinic was 27.8 (SD = 8.6), range 15 to 41, along with a comment that a number of them were married or in stable long term relationships, this would indicate that more than seven of the individuals were NOT HSTS. However, with such a high percentage of exclusively androphilic (HomoSexual TransSexual=HSTS) transwomen, this study has very high statistical signal strength compared to more mixed study groups. The study is open access so I strongly recommend reading it for yourself, but I do want to point out some of the important points found in the data.
The key metric I am interested in is how many of the MTF HSTS are genitally “avoidant”? That is to say, that they really would rather a sexual partner NOT touch their pre-op genitalia. Of the 147 transwomen 113 (77%) indicated that they were avoidant. If we assume that the seven non-HSTS transwomen were not among the avoidant (and there is good reason to assume that), the percentage is 81%. Further, although we all know that sometimes we give in to the desires of a partner to please them, even when personally unpleasant, 94 (67%) indicated that they NEVER allow their partners to touch their pre-op genitalia.
It is interesting to note that for FtM HSTS, they too are predominately genitally AND chest avoidant.
A word of caution in examining the percentage data in the paper’s tables. They often do not relate to the full study group, but the subgroup that has indicated any of the target behaviors being listed. This is very bad practice on the part of the authors, but I’ve seen this kind of confusion error before so was able to spot it, as the numbers didn’t make sense until I found the true denominator.
Another editorial comment about the paper: They describe such avoidant behavior as “ego dystonic” regarding their “sexuality”, which it is NOT. It is a consequence of the type of somatic gender dysphoria experienced by HSTS (as opposed to AGP transwomen who as a general rule, are not “avoidant”). This is confusing two different psychological constructs. Historically, AGPs have been described as being ego-dystonic because in the course of moving from part-time cross-dresser to full time transwomen, their desire to transition is usually at odds with their original identity as men. But, for HSTS, there is never a time when this is true. Their gender identity and desire to transition are in alignment and is described as “ego-syntonic”.
Again, this study provided strong, solid, data to back up the earlier studies and conclusion that HSTS, both MTF and FtM are predominantly preferentially genitally “avoidant”, experiencing severe somatic gender dysphoria. This phenomena is important in that many, if not most HSTS, avoid “chasers”, gynandromorphophilic (GAMP) men, who preferentially seek out pre-op transwomen and have a strong desire to touch / fondle their pre-op genitalia. These men are often in denial that HSTS are genitally avoidant and have been known to get irrationally angry, even to the point of character assignation, when HSTS commentators bring this to their attention.
When I wished to have a orgasm and ejaculate I sucked my own penis.
I began sucking my own penis/ingesting my semen at age 11.
Mom often caught me sucking myself
My sexual role identity is a bit more complicated because my preferred role was being a female-roled receptive zoosexual from 1970 to 2000, I'm by far most attracted to Male equines and canines.
My first actual sexual experiences were, 1. performing fellatio on my jack donkey Edward and ingesting his semen at age 7...... 2. being penetrated and locked in a copulatory-tie with my Great Dane Cosso age 8.
"100% female-roled receptive free-use submissive"
I was exclusively a Black Owned Jensen group harem sissy after 2000
