Third-gender Artist Model
22 years experience as a life drawing artist's model
50 years as a submissive sissy femboy
I identify with:
Berdache/Travesties of Brazil (transgendered prostitutes)
third-gender type
100% female-roled receptive male
I'm completely psychologically feminized/emasculated
Third-Gender Identity
I am not a Man or Woman
Psychologically I have a "Pre-Op" Male to Female Homosexual Transexual Identity
The reason I refer to myself as "third-gender" is because I am physically a male, yet psychologically I feel like a female.
"I wish I was Female"
I've been a owned-collared "free Use" submissive, 100% female-roled femboy
since 1978 as Jensen Group harem sissy
I got caged in 1999, I am 100% psychologically feminized/emasculated
("I only model wearing a cage")
It is intented to figure my own self out better, why I am who I am
though this is the exhibitionistic
element for me
because I am a
"exhibitionist"
I truly love modeling and modeling for artist, has no erotic element for me.
My questions I've struggled with all my life,
why do I need treated sexually like a female.
"And wish to be Female"
Many questions
The content is intended for educational, research and journaling purposes Much of the content is in Scenario Form
thus whether fact or fiction, is by interpretation.
If only;
"How things could of turned out dilemma"
"Like a thought experiment of sorts"
or
" Some aspects based on fact "
" A hodgepodge script "
"Thought experiment"
My Web Journal
"Like an Actor preparing for a script in order to be convincing"
"A Study and Outline for my Novels;
fiction novel: "The Jensen Group"
and
"No One needs to be an another more then the Transsexual, No One needs another more then the Exhibitionist"
" As much as Life Drawing can express Reality, it can express Fantasy "
note: most of the imagery on my site is for illustrative purposes to illustrate how I became completely psychologically feminized/emasculated and how my identity revolves around the need to be female-roled both sexually and non-sexually.
All videos, photos, gifs
are for illustrative purposes
A journey of "Living vicariously in a imagined scenario"
"wishing I was female"
Forever editing the site
established
FEBRUARY 19th, 2020
Contact at;
Travesties of Brazil
The following are excerpts from:
MALES WHO ENJOY being anally penetrated by other males are, in many places in the world, an object of special cultural elaboration. Anywhere they occur as a culturally recognized type, it is usually they who are classified and named, not the males who penetrate them (who are often simply called men). Furthermore, to the extent that male same-sex sexual relations are stigmatized, the object of social vituperation is, again, usually those males who allow themselves to be penetrated, not the males who penetrate them. - The Gender of Brazilian Transgendered Prostitutes Author(s): Don Kulick
Anywhere they constitute a salient cultural category, men who enjoy being penetrated are believed to think, talk, and act in particular, identifiable, and often cross-gendered manners. What is more, a large number of such men do in fact behave in these culturally intelligible ways. So whether they are the mahus, hijras, kathoeys, xaniths, or berdaches of non-Western societies, or the mollies and fairies of our own history, links between habitual receptivity in anal sex and particular effeminate behavioral patterns structure the ways in which males who are regularly anally penetrated are perceived, and they structure the ways in which many of those males think about and live their lives.!
One area of the world in which males who enjoy being anally penetrated receive a very high degree of cultural attention is Latin America. Any student of Latin America will be familiar with the effervescent figure of the effeminate male homosexual. Called maricón, cochon, joto, marica, pajara, loca, frango, bicha, or any number of other names depending on where one finds him (see Murray and Dynes 1987 and Dynes 1987 for a sampling), these males all appear to share certain behavioral characteristics and seem to be thought of, throughout Latin America, in quite similar ways.”
One of the basic things one quickly learns from any analysis of Latin American sexual categories is that sex between males in this part of the world does not necessarily result in both partners being perceived as homosexual. The crucial determinant of a homosexual classification is not so much the fact of sex as it is the role performed during the sexual act. A male who anally penetrates another male is generally not considered to be homosexual. He is considered, in all the various local idioms, to be a “man”; indeed, in some communities, penetrating another male and then bragging about it is one way in which men demonstrate their masculinity to others
One of the basic things one quickly learns from any analysis of Latin American sexual categories is that sex between males in this part of the world does not necessarily result in both partners being perceived as homosexual. The crucial determinant of a homosexual classification is not so much the fact of sex as it is the role performed during the sexual act. A male who anally penetrates another male is generally not considered to be homosexual. He is considered, in all the various local idioms, to be a man"; indeed, in some communities, penetrating another male and then bragging about it is one way in which men demonstrate their masculinity to others (Lancaster 1992:241; cf. Brandes 1981:234)
A conceptual system in which only males who are penetrated are homosexual is clearly very different from the modern heterosexual-homosexual dichotomy currently in place in countries such as the United States, where popular understanding generally maintains that a male who has sex with another male is gay no matter how carefully he may restrict his behavior to the role of penetrator. This difference between Latin American and northern Euro-American understandings of sexuality is analyzed with great insight in the literature on male same-sex relations in Latin America, and one of the chief merits of that literature is its sensitive documentation of the ways in which erotic practices and sexual identities are culturally organized.
The evidence for the arguments developed here will be drawn from my fieldwork in the Brazilian city of Salvador, among a group of males who enJoy anal penetration. These males are effeminized prostitutes known throughout Brazil as travestis (a word derived from transvestir, to cross-dress).4
And most telling of the special place reserved for travestis in the Brazilian popular imagination is the fact that the individual widely acclaimed to be most beautiful woman in Brazil in the mid-1980s was ... a travesti. That travesti, Roberta Close, became a household name throughout the country. She regularly appeared on national television, starred in a play in Rio, posed nude (with demurely crossed legs) in Playboy magazine, was continually in- terviewed and portrayed in virtually every magazine in the country, and had at least three songs written about her by well-known composers. Although her popularity declined when, at the end of the 1980s, she left Brazil to have a sex-change operation and live in Europe, Roberta Close remains extremely well-known.
I very much prefer to dress as this
"The below excerpt is how I am roled sexually for men and why I identify with the Brazilian Travesti"
Travestis want their boyfriends to be men, not viados (homosexual). They require, in other words, their boyfriends to be symbolically and socially different from, not similar to themselves.
Therefore, a travesti does not want her boyfriend to notice, comment on, or in any way concern himself with her penis, even during sex.
Sex with a boy-friend, consists, for the most part, of the travesti sucking the boyfriend's penis and of her boyfriend penetrating her, most often from behind, with the travesti on all fours or lying on her stomach on the bed.
If the boy-friend touches the travesti at all, he will caress her breasts and perhaps kiss her.
But no contact with the travesti's penis will occur, which means, according to most travestis I have spoken to, that travestis do not usually have orgasms during sex with their boyfriends.
My sexual role identity is a bit more complicated because my preferred role was being a female-roled receptive zoosexual from 1970 to 2000, I'm by far most attracted to Male equines and canines.
My first actual sexual experiences were, 1. performing fellatio on my jack donkey Edward and ingesting his semen at age 7...... 2. being penetrated and locked in a copulatory-tie with my Great Dane Cosso age 8.
I was being penetrated anally by human males age 13, soon followed by my jack donkey Edward, then soon after by 2 other jack donkeys and 2 stallion ponies, after my Mom and I moved to my Aunt Becky's farm. From that time, 1975 on until 2000, my 3 jack donkeys, 2 stallion ponies and always 3 large intact stud dogs lived with me and "bred" me on a somewhat scheduled routine, in that I generally offered myself to the 3 jack donkeys, 2 stallion ponies nearly daily to be bred, and the dogs every other day to be bred. (so preparing/cleaning my bottom so I could be bred became a major component of my life)
Is Copulation Always an Animalistic Act?
In biology, copulation refers to the physical act of sexual intercourse in which a male introduces sperm into a female’s reproductive tract, often as part of mating behavior. Across the animal kingdom, this act is driven largely by instinct and hormones to ensure reproduction, and many species’ mating behaviors are instinctual, unlearned, and focused on procreation. This biological definition aligns with the “animalistic” label because it describes a biological function rather than a social or emotional experience.
However, in human contexts, copulation is not always purely animalistic. While humans share evolutionary roots with animals and have biological drives for reproduction, human sexuality is shaped by cognitive abilities, emotional depth, cultural norms, and social learning. For many people, sex is not just a reproductive act but also a source of intimacy, pleasure, and connection. It can occur with or without romantic love, commitment, or emotional bonding.
Key distinctions:
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Biological/zoological view: Copulation is a reproductive act governed by instinct and hormones, common across many species.
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Human social view: Sex can be a blend of biological drive and personal, emotional, or relational meaning, influenced by consent, culture, and individual choice.
In summary:
From a zoological standpoint, copulation is indeed an animalistic act in the sense that it is a biological, instinct-driven reproductive behavior. But in humans, it can also be a complex, socially and emotionally significant act that goes beyond mere animal instinct.
I've very much experienced Animalistic Sex
Because my primary sexual attraction is toward intact Male equine and Canines as my penetrative partner I've very much experienced Animalistic Sex, (I was continually bred by Canines from 1970 to 2000 and Equines from 1975 to 2000).
I also have been copulating with Human males since 1970, I can't read the minds of my Male partners, in my mind though I'm a female-roled receptive partner in Heat, thus needing to be Bred.
In my mind it sure seems like an instinct-driven reproductive need
I very much wish them to choose me, if I'm offering my bottom/becoming a "her" for them, on my hands and knees or bent over on a phantom mare or table, I've chosen them, and desperately want to be a "girl" for them, thus offering to submit to them and be ready for them to thrust their penis deep up inside of me and deposit their sperm, whether they are a canine, equine or human, I know what to expect if they choose to Stud me, as I surrender myself to them I know it is going to be intimate and animalistic the moment their penis pushes into my body until they ejaculate and deposit their sperm inside me.
Once a Male has bred me, even though it maybe a polyamorous type relationship they are copulating with me already, they've chosen me, if they successfully bred me and want me as theirs My duty now is to be constantly IN-HEAT for them and offer myself to them as often as possible, in essence, become their free-use submissive female-roled receptive partner.
I feel whether I with a male, human, equine or canine partner, beyond just the copulation aspect the is a mutual bond and trust that occurs, because of the ability to speak to a human partner, of coarse I can convey to them how I want to be feminized, dominated sexually, animalistically, objectified, verbally referred to as a sissy-boy, femboy, sissy slut etc.
I seldom have a orgasm/ejaculate with human and equine partner, however if one of the stud dogs keeps me locked up in a long enough copulatory-tie I might ejaculate.
My penis is always limp when getting "bred"
I don't ever want to be seen with a erection
My duty/role is to be clean and ready to be penetrated at all times, be able to perform fellatio at all times, so my interest in having an orgasm is of no importance to when serving my male partners.
By the time I was 16 or so I was so deeply feminized/emasculated from getting "bred" so often is was difficult for me to get a erection if I tried, the only thing I missed about that was my inability to suck my own penis.
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I just have Sissygasms when with the dogs or alone
I've always been 100% female-roled receptive only
and
need to be made to feel like a female
When I wished to have a orgasm and ejaculate I sucked my own penis.
I began sucking my own penis/ingesting my semen at age 11.
Mom often caught me sucking myself
My sexual role identity is a bit more complicated because my preferred role was being a female-roled receptive zoosexual from 1970 to 2000, I'm by far most attracted to Male equines and canines.
My first actual sexual experiences were, 1. performing fellatio on my jack donkey Edward and ingesting his semen at age 7...... 2. being penetrated and locked in a copulatory-tie with my Great Dane Cosso age 8.
Even though I've been celibate as zoosexual since 2000, I still consider "female-roled receptive zoosexual" to be my true identity, legally if they happen to change the law, so I could again be legaly a female-roled receptive zoosexual, I would again start getting bred by Male canine and equine partners.
"100% female-roled receptive free-use submissive"
I was exclusively a Black Owned Jensen group harem sissy after 2000
