Identifying with Hermaphroditus

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By at least age 10, I started relating to Hermaphroditus as the idea of Hermaphroditus was the very first representation of a person that is both male and female, I'd come across Hermaphroditus in the encyclopedia, seeing that a person could be both a male and female was some thing that I deeply related too!, needed to believe, I just simply knew that I needed to be another male's girl-friend.
I came across a necklace of Gemini that had figures of a boy and girl within a circle prior to my 11th birthday while Mom and I were shopping at a small downtown department store, the moment I seen the Gemini necklace I wanted it intensely.
Mom had been asking me what I'd like for my birthday prior to our visit to the store, so I hurried and grabbed her, the lead her to the display case in order to show her the necklace, she clearly returned later and bought it because that is what I received for my 11th birthday.
It was a big deal in large part because I was able to tell Mom that the necklace represented how I feel, half boy, half girl, and I only want to be a girl-friend for males.
Mom had told me that during her pregnancy with me that she wish so much for me to be a girl, she told this after Mom caught me performing fellatio on my friend Kevin when I was 8 years old, then soon after caught me locked up in a copulatory-tie with Cosso my male great dane, at that time I'd told Mom that I wished that I was a girl, I should be a girl! (Mom knew that I was regularly still performing fellatio on Kevin and Meredith and getting "bred" by my great dane Cosso and Meredith my boyfriend)
After getting the Gemini necklace, by that time, I knew I was more then just homosexual, I knew I needed to be like a girl, then putting it on I was so proud to wear it to symbolize that I was at least half girl, and needed to only perform sexually as a girl.