Third-gender Artist Model
22 years experience as a life drawing artist's model
50 years as a submissive sissy femboy
I identify as a:
Pre-Op homosexual transsexual
berdache/third-gender type
100% female-roled receptive male
Preferential "Class X" submissive 100% female-roled receptive zoosexual from 1970-2000
(I became celibate as a zoosexual in 2000)
I consider my core identity to be a submissive Preferential female-roled receptive zoosexual for large intact male dogs and intact male equines.
Psychologically I have a "Pre-Op" Male to Female Homosexual Transexual Identity
The reason I refer to myself as "third-gender" is because I am physically a male, yet psychologically I feel like a female.
I've been a owned-collared "free Use" submissive, 100% female-roled femboy
since 1975
I got caged in 1999, I am 100% psychologically feminized/emasculated
"In 2000 I started serving only human males sexual"
("I only model wearing a cage")
This is a Web Journal
It is intented to figure my own self out better, why I am who I am
though this is the exhibitionistic
element for me
because I am a
"exhibitionist"
I truly love modeling and modeling for artist has no erotic element for me.
My questions I've struggled with all my life,
why do I need treated sexually like a female.
"And wish to be Female"
Many questions
The content is intended for educational, research and journaling purposes Much of the content is in Scenario Form
thus whether fact or fiction, is by interpretation.
If only;
"How things could of turned out dilemma"
"Like a thought experiment of sorts"
or
" Some aspects based on fact "
" A hodgepodge script "
"Thought experiment"
"Like an Actor preparing for a script in order to be convincing"
"A Study and Outline for my Novels;
fiction novel: "The Jensen Group"
and
"No One needs to be an another more then the Transsexual, No One needs another more then the Exhibitionist"
(a life as a submissive female-roled receptive zoosexual)
" As much as Life Drawing can express Reality, it can express Fantasy "
NSFW
contains nudity and sexual content
A journey of "Living vicariously in a imagined scenario"
All videos, photos, gifs
are for illustrative purposes
established
FEBRUARY 19th, 2020
Contact at;
note: most of the imagery on my site is for illustrative purposes to illustrate how I became completely psychologically feminized/emasculated and how my identity revolves around the need to be female-roled both sexually and non-sexually.
Forever editing the site
My identity is:
Sexual Inverted/Pre-Op Homosexual Transsexual-(HSTS)
Sexual inversion is a theory of homosexuality popular primarily in the late 19th and early 20th century.[a] Sexual inversion was believed to be an inborn reversal of gender traits: male inverts were, to a greater or lesser degree, inclined to traditionally female pursuits and dress and vice versa.[2] The sexologist Richard von Krafft-Ebing described female sexual inversion as "the masculine soul, heaving in the female bosom". - Wikipedia
My sexual/gender affirmation
comes by way of performing sexually for males as a;
"free-use submissive female-roled receptive sissy/femboy"
I am 100% female-roled receptive only
I've always so much dreamed of having a vulva like a lady
The main reason I've always preferred to belong to large intact male dogs and intact male equines is once they were sexually mature, I'd start offering myself to them sexually.
For example, once the Dogs finally got me successfully got me locked-up in a copulatory-tie with themselves, thus "bred" me, they "owned" me for life as their "girl", after that they could have me sexually as they wanted.
Being completely sexually submissive and animalistically bred and owned is how I desire to be bred.
Sex for me has always been about feeling accepted, my need to completely belong to and be submissive to my male partners. I very much need to be dominated and sexually feminized by him as often as he wants me, thus always being available for him sexually .
I've always had an insatiable desire to be "bred" and "feminized"
In the late 1970's the only information on homosexuality I was able to find was the book "Sexual Inversion" by Havelock Ellis
Sexual inversion is a theory of homosexuality popular primarily in the late 19th and early 20th century.[a] Sexual inversion was believed to be an inborn reversal of gender traits: male inverts were, to a greater or lesser degree, inclined to traditionally female pursuits and dress and vice versa.[2] The sexologist Richard von Krafft-Ebing described female sexual inversion as "the masculine soul, heaving in the female bosom". Published with a foreword by the sexologist Havelock Ellis, it consistently used the term "invert" to refer to its protagonist, who bore a strong resemblance to one of Krafft-Ebing's case studies.[4]
The theory of sexual inversion understands same-sex attraction as a form of gender variance. A sexual invert is someone who is attracted to their own sex, and the theory makes limited distinction between same-sex attracted people who are gender conforming apart from their attractions and same-sex attracted people who transgress assigned sex roles in other ways, such as crossdressing or cross-sex identification.
According to this theory, gay men and lesbians were sexual "inverts", people who appeared physically male or female on the outside respectively, but felt internally that they were of the "opposite" anatomical sex (according to the binary view of gender). Therefore, same-sex desires and attraction were explained as "latent heterosexuality", and bisexual desire was known as psychosexual hermaphroditism – in other words, gay men and lesbians were really just heterosexuals who were "born in the wrong body", and "bisexuals" were what modern-day sexologists would call intersex people (formerly hermaphrodites) by this theory (the bisexual person's "male" part supposedly has attractions towards females, and the "female" part has attractions towards males). - Wikipedia
The most overwhelming dynamic
of my sexual inversion is the need to feel "feminine"
and
need to be treated sexually like a female by my Male partners
Though I never have had any type of gender comfirmation surgery, cognitively I identify as a sexually inverted/homosexual transsexual type
I have very much always wanted the body of a female, that isn't so simple though
Though I have a male body, I very much feel as a female psychologically, so I actively seek to be in the female-receptive role sexually as often as I possible can, because once I have one of my male partner's penis up inside and he is studding me it greatly relieves me of the maleness in me, thus allowing me to feel female like as I should.
As a Pre-Op homosexual Transsexual type
I Never allow a partner to touch my penis, I hate even having a erection.
I want to be like a female, not a male!
I always want my penis to be tiny and never erect!
I chose to keep my homosexual/transsexual identity private publicly, thus the only type surgery that I truly have whole heartedly desired to undergo is the;
"zero-depth vulvoplasty".
However, so that I would not have to be on hormones, I only wished to have the surgery if the operation provided that my testes could be retained in the lips of the vulva.
In 30 years of searching for a surgeon who could/would do this type surgery, I never was able to find one willing to do it.
Psychologically, I consider myself to be a type of "HSTS" - homosexual transsexual
My Joy and Affirmation comes from
my Male canine and equine partners eagerly dominating me sexually,
thus deeply feminizing me and making me feel like their "girl".
Being made to feel feminine and submissive is my greatest need!
I've always considered my sexual orientation to be:
"female-roled receptive zoosexual"
If I fantasize about sex, the topic is always me having sex with male dogs or male equines, I never fantasize about sex with humans males or females.
