First time I was penetrated anally

I was 8 years old, while in Scouts during winter months we'd often go to the old Research Hospital indoor swimming pool one evening a week, the pool was a very large indoor pool. We had a Scout leader/helper by the name of Bob, he would be there as a kind of a life guard usually, Bob was 25 years old sexy and a great swimmer, I was distant from the others in the pool, when Bob surprised me from behind when I was in water just deep enough where I couldn't touch my feet to the bottom, he quickly grabbed me super tight around the chest, rendering me helpless, then with the other hand he yanked my swim trunks down then quickly slid his erect penis up inside my bottom, all the while telling me to remain quiet as he held me very tight and with quick short, hard thrusts of his penis up inside me, until he ejaculated, then he let me go like nothing happened, he'd say it's our secret.

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After that he'd do that to me every time we went swimming at the pool, it was like he had me under a spell or trained to submit, after the first time he'd fucked me, he'd wait for me at the far end of the pool, once I seen him there I'd swim down to him stand, then turn so my back was to him, I'd allow him to pull my swim trunks down, and quickly slide his penis up in side my bottom, he'd always be very hard already and his had what seemed like very large penis yet I actually hadn't seen it yet, due to being under water his penis would easily slide up inside me, within 30 seconds and quick hard short thrusts into me with his penis he'd ejaculate. I'd then go back to being with the Scouts, a few nights he "bred" me several times, I started volunteering/offering myself to him during the evenings, he'd had me start meeting him in the showers, have me suck his penis a bit then he "breed" in the shower stall with the water running on us. I guess I let him do it to me because I looked up to him as a Man and he was cute, and I just loved the feeling of having his penis up inside me, in a strange way it was like he had me under a spell of sorts, yet I liked it made me feel girly and I wanted so much to feel girly, so just kept letting him do it.

After doing that with me maybe 5-6 more night at the pool, Bob got caught doing the same thing with another Scout, and I never seen him again.

The whole thing about Bob getting caught was hush, hush, in a week it was never talked of again, no one asked us other scout if he'd done anything with us, it was very odd and unsettling in that regard.

Yet if Bob had gotten in trouble, and moved away, I'm sure I would let me continue to use me sexually for a long time maybe.

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Then not much later, in the spring/early summer when was still 9 years old, my step sister Peggy, Mom, my step father and myself were visiting my step father's parent's farm, Peggy, Kim and I were playing hide and seek, I was hiding in a shed when Peggy and her cousin Kim who was 11 found me, together they suddenly just started stripping my clothes off, once I was nude they crazy like started kissing my mouth, playing with my penis, giggling, being silly, then Mike, Kim's brother suddenly came walking in, he pulled out his penis and Peggy started sucking his penis, I remember Kim saying, "I'll go get the Vaseline Mike", After that I briefly remember getting on my knees sucking Mike's penis. Then I felt Kim putting Vaseline on my bottom as I was on my knees, Mike quickly walked behind me, and then I could feel his penis slowly being pushed up inside my, then him thrusting his penis in and out of my bottom. Next thing I remember going in the house, hurrying to the toilet because my bottom was sore, all of was like a dream or in shock, then I remember looking in the toilet after I'd tried pooping which I couldn't, yet I expelled his semen, which really put my in a surreal mental state, like it was a crazy dream and not real, yet very exciting, I'd wanted a penis in my bottom since seeing Mom taking my step-fathers up inside her bottom, and since Bob had "bred" me, I wanted it again.

 Before we left late that evening, Mike had me go out to the shed with him, I performed fellatio on him and it ejaculated in my mouth.

I never seen Kim and Mike again, I know if I had, I would let Mike use me for sex again.

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The only thing upsetting to me was, "I wanted Cosso or Edward to take my virginity"

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By the end of the following week Cosso finally successfully got me locked me in a copulatory-tie with him and truly "bred" me, it was one of the most dramatic life changing events of my life, for me it set my sex role for life, Cosso bred me every day for a week after that. I knew I wanted more then anything to be a female roled sex partner for large dogs, after that first week Cosso bred me every other day usually.

A huge element for me becoming and then to prefer being a female-roled sex partner for male dogs and equines, is that I can count on them to be there.

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I also knew by then that I wanted sex partners who would dominate me, turn me into a very submissive sex partner.

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So I've known I have wanted to be like a female sexually as long as I can really remember.