Third-gender Artist Model
22 years experience as a life drawing artist's model
50 years as a submissive sissy femboy
I identify as a:
Pre-Op homosexual transsexual
berdache/third-gender type
100% female-roled receptive male
Preferential "Class X" submissive 100% female-roled receptive zoosexual from 1970-2000
(I became celibate as a zoosexual in 2000)
Former female-roled
receptive zoosexual
1970 to 2000
From 1970 to 2000, I consider my core identity to be a submissive Preferential female-roled receptive zoosexual for large intact male dogs and intact male equines.
Psychologically I have a "Pre-Op" Male to Female Homosexual Transexual Identity
The reason I refer to myself as "third-gender" is because I am physically a male, yet psychologically I feel like a female.
I've been a owned-collared "free Use" submissive, 100% female-roled femboy
since 1975
I got caged in 1999, I am 100% psychologically feminized/emasculated
"In 2000 I started serving only human males sexual"
("I only model wearing a cage")
It is intented to figure my own self out better, why I am who I am
though this is the exhibitionistic
element for me
because I am a
"exhibitionist"
I truly love modeling and modeling for artist has no erotic element for me.
My questions I've struggled with all my life,
why do I need treated sexually like a female.
"And wish to be Female"
Many questions
The content is intended for educational, research and journaling purposes Much of the content is in Scenario Form
thus whether fact or fiction, is by interpretation.
If only;
"How things could of turned out dilemma"
"Like a thought experiment of sorts"
or
" Some aspects based on fact "
" A hodgepodge script "
"Thought experiment"
My Web Journal
"Like an Actor preparing for a script in order to be convincing"
"A Study and Outline for my Novels;
fiction novel: "The Jensen Group"
and
"No One needs to be an another more then the Transsexual, No One needs another more then the Exhibitionist"
(a life as a submissive female-roled receptive zoosexual)
" As much as Life Drawing can express Reality, it can express Fantasy "
NSFW
contains nudity and sexual content
A journey of "Living vicariously in a imagined scenario"
All videos, photos, gifs
are for illustrative purposes
established
FEBRUARY 19th, 2020
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note: most of the imagery on my site is for illustrative purposes to illustrate how I became completely psychologically feminized/emasculated and how my identity revolves around the need to be female-roled both sexually and non-sexually.
Forever editing the site
My Symptoms- Cuckold/Troilism Disorder
I've very much always desired the companionship of females,
however due to the fact that my sexual role is "female-roled receptive", I'm clearly not able to form a normal romantic sexual relationship with females.
I feel that being cuckolded or seeking a troilism type of relationship with females is a way of seeking a no-contact sexually or psychologically intimate with females because I am inadequate as a male partner due to my being a:
"100% female-roled receptive sex partner for males"
(very much an preferential female-roled receptive zoosexual)
The most ideal female companion for me is a female who prefers being a preferential receptive zoosexual with dogs and equines like myself.
(In essense her and I would only have sex with male dogs/male equine partners)
Second to that is having a female companion who is satisfied sexual by other males, and not by me.
I feel the earliest form of being cuckolded was when I would watch my mom having sex with my step-father, which first took place at age 7
By age 7, I was soon sucking my Great Dane Cosso's penis after observing Mom having sex.
Soon after I'd started sucking Cosso's penis, I asked a older boy I knew and really liked if I could suck his cock, he allowed me to suck his cock, soon I was routinely performing fellatio on my older boyfriend, he like Cosso would ejaculate in my mouth.
By age 8, I was sucking my jack donkey Edward's penis
First time I was penetrated anally by an Adult male
I'd been performing fellatio on Edward and two of my neighborhood friends routinely since June.
I was 8 years old, (1970) while in Scouts during winter months we'd often go to the old Research Hospital indoor swimming pool one evening a week, the pool was a very large indoor pool. We had a Scout leader/helper by the name of Bob, he would be there as a kind of a life guard usually, Bob was 25 years old sexy and a great swimmer, I was distant from the others in the pool, when Bob surprised me from behind when I was in water just deep enough where I couldn't touch my feet to the bottom, he quickly grabbed me super tight around the chest, rendering me helpless, then with the other hand he yanked my swim trunks down then quickly slid his erect penis up inside my bottom, all the while telling me to remain quiet as he held me very tight and with quick short, hard thrusts of his penis up inside me, until he ejaculated, then he let me go like nothing happened, he'd say it's our secret.
Though it was traumatic the first time, I'd be longing to suck a adult Man cock, I very much was Bob's very eager consenting partner all times afterwards, once I felt is big Man's penis sliding in and out of my bottom, it was all I could think about, and I so much want a Man's penis in me again and again!
Within a week after Bob was butt-fucking me, I offer myself to my Great dane Cosso and he soon had me locked in a copulatory-tie, and he was soon fucking me often as well.
After that Bob was fucking me twice a week or every time we went swimming at the pool, it was like he had me under a spell or trained to submit, after the first time he'd fucked me, he'd wait for me at the far end of the pool, once I seen him there I'd swim down to him stand, then turn so my back was to him, I'd allow him to pull my swim trunks down, and quickly slide his penis up side my bottom, he'd always be very hard already and his had what seemed like very large penis yet I actually hadn't seen it yet, due to being under water his penis would easily slide up inside me, within 30 seconds and quick hard short thrusts into me with his penis until he'd ejaculated.
I'd then go back to being with the Scouts, a few nights he "bred" me several times, I started volunteering/offering myself to him during the evenings, he'd had me start meeting him in the showers, have me suck his penis a bit then he "breed" in the shower stall with the water running on us. I guess I let him do it to me because I looked up to him as a Man and he was cute, and I just loved the feeling of having his penis up inside me, in a strange way it was like he had me under a spell of sorts, yet I liked it so much, having a penis up inside me made me feel girly and I wanted so much to feel girly, so just kept letting him do it. Bob only lived about a 10-minute bike ride for our house, so by the time I was 10 years old Bob screwed me and/or had me sucking his cock 3 or 4 time a week until I was 11 years old.
One day Bob asked me if I'd be interested in meeting some men that I been talking to about you?
My reply was, "what have you told them about me ?".
Bob said, "just that you were a very sexy 8 year old that likes having sex with adult men, I told them that you love sucking cock and love getting butt-fucked, don't worry they are great guys, and I completely trust them".
I replied, "sure if you trust them,"
Then one day in July 1971,
Age 9, I was at Bob's and just finished giving him a blow-job when a guy about 25 shows up at Bob's, Bob introduce me to his friend as James, then Bob look at me and said, "Michael, how would you like to give James a blow-job, James has a nice big cock that I bet you'd like!, I thought James was nice, and cute, so I meekly said, "yes, James then sat on the couch, I got on my knees on the floor in front of James and got his shorts pulled off, by the time I had his shorts completely off, James cock was fully erect, I eagerly started sucking it, as I did, Bob got behind me, lubed my bottom then push his own hard cock up inside me. Bob slowly slid his cock in and out of me as I sucked James cock, soon James then said, "Michael I have three friends that are looking for a young guy like you who will start giving us blow-jobs on a regular basis, maybe butt fuck you too, would you be interested in meeting them today?"
I took James's cock out of my mouth, and held it and stroked it as I replied, "how old are they?"
James replied, well Greg is 25 like me, Steven is 28 I think and David is 30 years old, they all nice, in good shape, no worries". my reply was, " I'll meet them, if I'm not comfortable with it, I'll just say that I have plans and need to get going".
James replied, "fair enough, let me hop up and go give them a call, James stands and walks in the kitchen to use Bob's phone.
As Bob continues studding me, he says, "Michael you'll like David, Greg and Steven, they are very nice guys and will treat you well, I'm glad Bob said that as I was a bit nervous about meeting the guy guys and committing to perform sexually for them. Bob calls out he about to climax, he then pulls his cock out of my bottom, then as usually I turn as Bob comes around to the side of me and then he ejaculates in my open mouth as though I'm a baby bird eager to be feed. I thought about what to tell James, then told yes I'll meet them, James replies I'll go call them now.
James returns from calling the guys, sits back down on the couch and says, "the guys said they'd be here in 15-20 minutes", I then went back to sucking Jame's cock. After about 10 more minutes of sucking Jame's cock he ejaculated in my mouth, I got up and walked to the bathroom, douched my bottom and lubed it in case the guys wanted to stud me, I gargled with mouth wash and washed my face and the weather was quite warm so I stripped naked.
By the time I walked out to join James and Bob in the living room, one of the guys was sitting on a chair next to the couch, James introduced us, he was Greg, then Greg asked if I could suck he cock, he was cute, I quickly replied yes, and then James quickly got naked from the waist down then quickly got sat back down in the chair, I then eager got down on my knees and started performing fellatio on him. I'd been performing fellatio on James maybe 5 minutes when one of the other guys walked in the living room, James introduced him as Steven, then James asked me if it was ok if Steven started studding me, I meekly replied, "Steven, please lube yourself up with Vaseline or mineral oil, then ejaculate in my mouth when your ready cum please". I returned to sucking James, Bob goes and gets a towel so I can kneel on, then soon I felt Steven's hard cock slowly pushing into my bottom, James said, "Michael, Steven's cock is quite big, but he'll be gentle, yet if it hurts just say so". Steven says, "yes for sure say so Michael, I only wish to do this if it feels good for you too". Steven very slowly then started pushing his cock deeper and deeper up inside me, all I could do was gasp, and whimper as he did, but it felt so wonderful having him fill me up with his big cock.
As Steven fucked me, I could only stroke and hold Greg's cock with one hand and hold onto his thigh with the other as Steven non-stop slowly slid his cock in and out of me. After a bit of silence Greg says, "you liking this don't you Michael?".
I mumbled meekly, "yes, ever since age six and would watch my Mom suck and get fucked by my step-father through the crack in my slightly open bedroom door I've want men to fuck me, my step-father used to walk through my room at night naked thinking I was a sleep, yet I wasn't, seeing his big thick cock swaying as he walked made me want to suck him so much", Greg replies, "if you had the chance would you have sucked his cock or even let him fuck you?".
I moaned out, "yes, the way I wanted it, yes!, ever since I wanted sex with Men, real grown Men!". Greg replies, "well I'm a grown Man and I've been looking for a young cute guy like yourself that takes the female role completely, are loves sex with grown Men, is that your role Michael?", I mumbled desperately , "yes, I want to be treated like a girl by grown Men please!". Greg, "how old are you Michael?". I replied, "eight".
Greg, continues slowly sliding his cock in and out of me, "Michael, when did you first get butt-fucked?". I meekly replied, "My Great Dane Cosso fucked me first, then Bob". Greg replied, "oh so you also like stud dogs fucking you, I've got a big English Mastiff that would love to start fucking you, would you like that Michael?". Mumbling, I moaned out, "yes I want him to, want is his name?". Greg replies, "Jake, you suck dog cock as well Michael?". "yes" I cry out, when can I meet Jake?". "how often will you be available for me!", I thought for minute then said, "now that it is summer, most days between about 9am and 3pm, then 7pm to 9pm I can walk down to the Park Drive dairy and you could pick me up when you want me, both my parents work full time". Greg, " it is Saturday today, how about, I'll pick you up at Park Drive later today about 4pm? if you want". I tell Greg I'll be there.
Greg says, "beside letting Jake take you as his new bitch to stud would you be interested in meeting a couple of older black guys that I know would like to start fucking you, one is 52 and the other is 50 years old, they'd be good to you and put you in the female role always, both have huge cocks". I replied, "yes I'd like that alot", as I moaned and whimpered desperately. James pipes in and says, "Michael, I have some young guys I know that would love to take you regularly, put you in the completely female role".
Mumbling, "yes please, I only want treated like as though I'm a girl, please!, please call me sissyboy, femboy, anything that makes me feel like a girl". Greg, "do you think your like a transsexual Michael?". I mumbled, "I know I just want to be like a girl, not really sure what a transsexual is, sorry". Greg replies, "there are some homosexuals that get a sex change surgery so they can have breasts and a vagina like a real girl, the dress like girls as well, that's a transsexual in a nut shell". I reply, "yes I would like to be a transsexual then". Greg says, "we will all definitely treat you as though your a girl, gently and with lots of sex". I reply, "I want sex as often as possible, I love what your doing to me now, and please ejaculate in my mouth when your ready to, I love semen in my mouth, makes me feel so girl like". Greg, "I am getting close to ejaculating".
David comes walking in to the living room and sits at he other end of the couch at watches just as Greg is ejaculating in my mouth, and it's the first of me actually seeing Greg's cock, it is super long and thin though, I get all Greg's semen swallowed, then ask Greg how long his cock is, he tells me it is 9 inches long, then I turn and look at David, David smiles and says, "hi I am David", I'm somewhat embarrassed replied meekly, "I'm Michael".
I stand, then sit in the middle of the couch and say to David, "I'd be happy to suck your cock or you can slide your penis up inside my bottom, which ever you like".
David replies, "well, that's a tough choice, but you have a great bottom, I'd like to experience having my penis up inside your butt if that is ok".
I replied, "yes, I love to be butt-fucked", I then said to all of them, "Bob has only been using Vaseline or mineral oil when he lubes me up, and I use mineral oil to douche my bottom, hand lotion burns my bottom terrible".
All three of the guys reply, "that's what we will use then". Bob says, "the Vaseline is there on the floor next to the coffee table, just make sure there is a towel under Michael when studding him is all".
David, "so how long has Bob been studding you?", I replied, " over a year and half now", David, "so your pretty experienced now, you going to want us three guys studding you on a regular basis now?".
I reply, "I want to be able to, I'll do my best, how often do you'd think you'll be wanting to be with me?".
Greg giggles, "every day, I want you as often as possible".
I replied, "I want it as often as possible too!, most days all day I'll be free all summer."
Bob. "since summer break from school Michael has been coming over to my house at about 3:30".
James, "what you think if Greg, David, Steven and I come by at 4:30?".
Bob says it is fine with him whether he is home or not, door key is under the big rock by the bottom of the back steps.
I reply, "I mainly have to be home by 6pm for supper, or Mom will be mad and worried".
Greg, " if we double team you as we are doing now, we will make an hour work, I've got a few weeks vacation I could take, my place is out at lake Bracken, I could get William and Daniel to come out, I could pick you up at Bob's take you out for a whole day, Jake would likely fuck you several times a day, William has a English Mastiff named Vern, Vern and Jake get along good so William could bring him out so Vern could fuck you as well".
I reply, "yes I really like to be getting bred by Vern and Jake regularly, I love how Cosso wildly fucks me".
James, "Michael, maybe if ok with you we can introduce to some more guys we know, several have large intact male dogs".
I reply, "if you think they treat me good, sure, but I don't know if I will have the time to serve any more guys, but I want to see as many guys and dogs as possible".
James, "I'll see what I can do".
I reply, "in the evening I can stay out until dark so 8-9 pm, if say you wanted to pick me up at Bob's and take me to William an/or Daniels, or I can give them blow-jobs as we drive around, as long as I am back home between 8pm to 9pm".
Greg, "I'll call William and Daniel, but I know once the meet you Michael their both going want you as their full-time sissy-boy to fuck, plus they know many black guys who would likely want you as well".
I reply, "my friend Kevin is black and 12 years old now, he just started fucking me, so I like black guys".
David and Steven both say, "well maybe we will get stud dogs for you Michael!".
I smile big and say, "I'd love that".
At 4pm I was back over at Bob's house, David and Steven showed up at 4:30 with two younger guys, Eric and Bradley were 13 and 14 years old, I was ready so I got on my hands and knees, Eric got in front of me and stuck his cock in my mouth as Bradley started butt-fucking me, Eric was ejaculating in my mouth in about 10 minutes, not long after Bradley pulled out of my bottom, got around in front of me and ejaculated in my mouth as David started fucking me.
As soon as I'd got Bradley's cum swallowed Steven stuck his cock in my mouth, Steven was ready to cum after about 10 minutes, so he came around in front and started ejaculating in my mouth as David then went behind me and started fucking me, Bob then stuck his cock in my mouth.
David fucked me for maybe 10 minutes then pulled out came around in front of me and ejaculated in my mouth as Bob switched to fucking me, soon then Eric stuck his cock in my mouth again, everybody but Bob ejaculated in my mouth twice, by then it was 5:30, Greg had called Bob and told me he'd pick me up at Bob's house at 7pm that evening.
I headed home.
I was at Bob's at 7pm, Greg was waiting for me, he told me that I had a date with William and Jake the English Mastiff, so we hopped in his car and headed to William's house.
Needless to say, I was super excited, it was only about a 10 minute drive to William's, as we walked to the backdoor of William's place, we could hear woof, woof!, "that's Vern", I replied, "I hope he wants me", Greg chuckled, and said, "I'm sure he will". as we got to the door, William opened it wearing his bath robe, he said come on in and let Vern welcome you Michael, me as well, we both have been eager to meet you.
William lead us to the living room, then he told us to take a seat, as soon as I was seated William stood in front of me opened his robe and said, "Michael this is what I have to offer you, hope you like". I just stared at his big black semi erect cock for a moment, looked up at William and said, "can I start sucking it?", William replied, let me sit, Michael you get on your knees in front of me, and maybe Vern will mount you, lets see what happens".
That's just what we did, as I licked, kissed and sucked William's semi-erect cock it quickly got fully erect.
William moaned and said, "that's a good sissy-boy, worship that big black cock, you need a black Master like don't you Michael?, you going be my sissy slut boy from now on?".
I mumbled, "yes, I need to belong to you, use me as you see fit please!".
Wiggle that cute little ass around, Vern is already looking very interested in studding you".
I started wiggling my bottom as Vern sniffed me, then started licking my bottom, then the next thing I know Vern's huge body is up on my back, then I feel the tip of Vern's penis poking trying to find my butt hole as he humps me vigorously, which he does rather quickly, as I feel his penis enter my bottom, then with each thrust it goes deeper up inside me as I whimper and try to keep sucking Williams cock.
William, "he is determined to get it stuck",
About as soon as William finishes saying that, I feel Vern's seemingly huge knot swells up inside me, I started squirming and loudly whimpering as Vern's knot and cock swell bigger and bigger inside me".
William, "that's a good boy, fill your new sissy-bitch's boy pussy with that hot dog cum"
I moan out, "he is, his cock is throbbing and hot in me!, oh Vern I wanta be your full time sissy-bitch so much".
William, "Michael now as he fills you with cum, get to sucking my cock, I want to see your mouth full of my cock, suck it you sissy-bitch!, then I'll shove it up you butt when Vern is done with you, your going start coming and seeing us daily Michael, that's what I expect you to be doing from now on, at least until school restarts".
I mumble as I say, "William what is your work schedule?".
William, "I'm retired from Air force, so I don't have a work schedule, so be at Bob's at 8:30 Monday thru. Friday and I pick you up and bring you back here, I've been at this awhile so I own 15 submissives, age 10 to 40 years old, you'll be be number 16#, you'll also be my only completely female roled receptive submissive, so all 15 of my submissives will take you as their submissive, so you'll be getting fucked by all of them, performing fellatio on all of them from now on.
Michael, tomorrow you'll be serving at least 10 of them likely, I can get all 15 here between 9am and 4:30 pm, then all of them can fuck you tomorrow, we see, but you'll be getting fucked and sucking cock all day, Monday thru Friday".
I reply meekly, "I want to do whatever you want me to do William".
William, "thats what I expect, do you have dress you can wear, I want you looking like girly-boy for everyone from now on, if not I get you some dresses or at least pay for them, but we can go shopping and you can pick out so dresses you like".
I reply, "I'd like that a lot".
William, "the 5 oldest of my submissives have English Mastiff stud dogs, they will all be fucking you regularly, along with Jake and Vern, then two of my submissives have English Mastiffs yet they will not be mature as stud dogs, I also have 6 female submissives that you'll be a submissive for, you'll be performing cunninglingus on them, and if the wish for you to butt fucking them when you hit puberty, or when you can get erect in order to fuck them, you'll do as they wish, so I plan on you being my submissive until I die or just plain to old".
I reply meekly, "you own me now, so I belong to you forever". (I was simply sure I wanted William that much).
William, "Michael do you have a douche bottle and latex dildo for use in cleaning your bottom to prepare for anally sex?".
I replied, "Bob gave me a douche bottle, I been using either mineral oil or vegetable oil in it, I douched before coming over tonight".
William, "let me get you a dildo, Stan one of my older subs makes really nice latex dildos for all my subs, be right back".
As William stands and walks away, Greg tells me to get on my knees and start sucking his cock, so I do".
Greg says, "Michael suck on those big balls for awhile".
I take one of Greg's balls completely in my mouth and gentle suck on it.
Greg, "Michael, your going be a great sissy sub for all us guys and dogs".
Vern starts pulling out of me, causing me let Greg's ball fall out of my mouth as I whimper and squeal as his big knot suddenly pops out of me".
I look up at Greg and mumble, "that felt like a huge knot!".
Greg, ' he does have huge knot, get down and lick and suck Vern's cock clean Michael".
I do as told.
I hear William say, "you belong to Vern now Michael, get that cock of his licked clean, then I want to feel my cock up in that tight young ass of your's".
In minutes William is getting me so I am laying my chest on the couch, then he slowly starts sliding his big black cock up inside me, I start squealing and squirming about as it slides deeper and deeper up inside me.
William, "oh Michael your so nice and tight, it feels wonderful, oh you going be a great sissy slut for me to fuck!".
I mumble, "oh you feel so good up inside me, please don't stop".
William fucked me nice and slowly for about 10 minutes, then said, "Michael I'm going go ahead and cum in your butt since your already full of Vern's cum".
William pulls me firmly onto his cock then starts huffing and puffing as he starts ejaculating up inside me.
As soon as William gets his cock pulled out of me, Greg is right there sliding his hard cock up inside me, I start squealing and squirming all over again.
Following week
William was retired, so William would pick me up at 8:30 am, bring me home at 4pm every day, his English Mastiff "Jake" started fucking me every day at least once, that week.
William made it very clear to me that he wanted me as his submissive and wanted him with him as much as possible
William was going to start arranging things for me,
Which of the group dogs that I be getting bred by as there were 34 large intact male stud dogs in the group.
I would be performing cunninglingus on all 34 of the female group members who owned the dogs.
1971 summer
In the spring/early summer of 1971, when was still 9 years old, my step sister Jackie, Mom, my step-father and myself were visiting my step father's parent's farm, Jackie, Kathy and I were playing hide and seek, I was hiding in a shed when Jackie and her cousin Kathy who was 11 found me, together they suddenly just started stripping my clothes off, once I was nude they crazy like started kissing my mouth, playing with my penis, giggling, being silly, then Tom, Kathy's brother suddenly came walking in, he pulled out his penis and Jackie started sucking his penis, I remember Kathy saying, "I'll go get the Vaseline Tom", After that I briefly remember getting on my knees sucking Tom's penis. Then I felt Kathy putting Vaseline on my bottom as I was on my knees, Tom quickly walked behind me, and then I could feel his penis slowly being pushed up inside my, then him thrusting his penis in and out of my bottom. Next thing I remember going in the house, hurrying to the toilet because my bottom was sore, all of was like a dream or in shock, then I remember looking in the toilet after I'd tried pooping which I couldn't, yet I expelled his semen, which really put me in a surreal mental state, like it was a crazy dream and not real, yet very exciting, I'd wanted a penis in my bottom since seeing Mom taking my step-fathers up inside her bottom, and since Bob had "studded" me, I wanted it again.
Before we left late that evening, Tom had me go out to the shed with him, I performed fellatio on him and he ejaculated in my mouth.
I never seen Kathy and Tom again, I know if I had, I would let Tom use me for sex again.
7th grade
I was in 7th grade, age 12 a whole new school, larger and with many new students, 7 through 9 grades, plus a open shower policy for gym class, I was very nervous about the open shower policy that due the fact that I knew I was sexually attracted to guys, and the "not knowing how I would react" to seeing all these fellow male students nude.
There were also a lot black students in this new school, (which I like) where my middle school had just a few black students, there were many more black guys here at this new school.
My the first week there, I was sitting on the bench in front of my locker which was near the open showers, and I glanced into the showers and I could clearly see Rod, one black guys in my gym class showering, he had the biggest cock I'd ever seen, I was staring at him, I couldn't help myself from staring at it, well Rod caught me staring at him. As I still was sitting on the bench tying my shoes, Rod walked to me, stood in front of me, there 2 feet right in front of my face was Rod's huge semi-erect cock, I looked up at him and meekly said "hi", Rod replied "you want to suck it don't you, I know a femboy when I see one", looking at his penis in front of me, I meekly replied, "it just is so big, don't know", then I looked down embarrassed.
Rod replied, "you mean you don't know, why?".
I meekly replied, "I guess I just met you kinda thing, I guess"
Rod, "well you see what I have to offer, and I needing a femboy to start sucking it a regular basis".
Well later in the day while I was walking down the hall along with many other students headed to their next class, suddenly Rod came up behind me and whispered in my ear, "I want you to suck my big black cock, you know you want it", I just kept walking and didn't reply.
After that, in gym class he started asking me every day things like "have you sucked cock yet, if you haven't I'd be surprised because I know you want to suck cock, I can tell your a femboy", after several days of his bothering me, I replied, "yes I'm a femboy", Rod replied, " so I was right, you have sucked cock haven't you?".
I meekly replied, " yes, been sucking cock regularly since I was about 8 years old".
Rod asked me, "have you had cock up inside your butt yet?.
I told him, "yes regularly since I was 8 years old".
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Rod replied, "yeah it is 10 inches long, I'll be nice and gentle to you, do you like to swallow cum, I do want you to start you sucking my cock regularly, I'm looking for steady girly-boyfriend, who likes sucking and getting butt-fucked often".
I replied meekly, "I do really want to suck your cock, swallow your cum and have your cock up in my bottom, I very much want and need to feel like a girl, be treated like a girl by guys".
Rod replied, "I'll treat you like a girl, you can suck my cock everyday if you want or more, if you ready to suck my cock, meet me in the woods behind the dairy at 4pm and you can suck it and I'll help you feel like a girl from now on".
Well after I got home from school at 3pm, all I knew was I wanted to suck his cock so much, I got on my bike and rode down to the woods behind the dairy and sure enough Rod showed up, he rode to me on his bike, then he told me to follow him to a spot in the woods where I could safely suck his cock, once we got to the spot, he unzipped his shorts, pulled out his already huge erect cock and told me to get down and start sucking it, I eagerly did, in less than a minute he was ejaculating in mouth.
Rod very much had me under his spell, I was ready to do for him anything he wanted me to,after that day, he and I would meet at that same spot every day, I'd perform fellatio on him and swallow his cum, this went on about a week then he told me he had an older friend who would like to have me start sucking his cock as well, and he'd bring him to meet me tomorrow, by that time I was Rod's free-use submissive, I would have done almost anything for him, so I said ok.
Well, the next day, Rod showed up with Steve another black guy from school, they were waiting for me, thus I sucked both of them until they ejaculated in my mouth.
The following day another black guy from school was with Rod, this went on for a couple of weeks until I was sucking 4 different black guys from school and 5 other older black guys who didn't attend our school yet were good friends of both Rod
Rod gives me an 18 inch long double-ended dildo, and a douche bottle.
Rod says to me, " Michael start using this dildo to help get you used to taking big cocks all the way up inside your butt, and help get you clean, lube it with mineral oil, squirt mineral oil up inside your butt, slide the dildo up in you, just repeat over and over again, do it several times a day, all of us guys want to start butt-fucking you as soon as your ready. After a few days of working with the dildo and thinking this will help me be ready for Edward, because I was so ready to start getting fucked by Edward my jack donkey, I was able to get all 18 inch of it up inside. I told the guys I was ready, in a week all of them were butt-fucking me as well, I would suck at least one of the 9 after school every day and try to suck all of them on the weekend, as well as get butt-fucked by them during our interaction, 3 or 4 or all 9 of them gang-banged at times. Two of the guys (William and Samuel) had their own home within a 10 minute bike ride from my house (we lived just outside of town), so I just go there after school, then who ever show up I'd serve sexually.
I'd started sucking my own cock and ejaculating in my own my mouth in June and had been telling Rod that I had a while ago".
Mom tells me that my step-father met another lady and he wants a divorce
Until the following April, or about 5 months of serving all the guys sexually, I was walking down the crowded hallway at school at someone yelled out loud from down the hall, "Michael loves to suck cock!", after that I was really humiliated daily it seemed, different student yelling, "Michael is gay etc.", different guys coming up to me asking if I really liked sucking cock etc.", me hearing student whispering about it in class.
After about 2 week of the constant getting called gay, cock sucker etc., I wanted to quit school, so I told mom I couldn't take it any longer, and I'd developed severe checking/obsessive thoughts type OCD.
Mom and I are going to live with my Aunt Becky out on the farm
1974
Mom catches me sucking Rod's cock
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Mom said through the cracked door, "I want to speak to both of you at the kitchen table as soon as your done". then she pulled the door shut.
Rod and I quickly got dressed and headed out to the kitchen
Mom was sitting waiting for us as we walked into the kitchen, she then said, "Rod I'd first like to speak to you alone, so Michael go wait in your room please".
I did as I was told and walked back to my room.
Mom and Rod sitting in kitchen
Mom(Nina), "Rod, I know Michael is homosexual, I've caught him getting fucked by Cosso his dog several times now, yet how long have you and Michael been having sex?".
Rod, "really since school started, first time I very laid eyes on Michael I was taking a shower, Michael was sitting on bench looking at me as he was at his locker getting dressed, as I walk pass him on the way to my locker I stopped and said asked if he'd like to suck my cock, and I told him that I could tell he was a femboy type, few days later I in hall way I told to meet me down behind Park Drive Dairy after school and he could suck my cock, Michael was there, so we went in the woods and he sucked my cock.
Nina, "so this has become a frequent/routine thing now?".
Rod, "yeah, Michael sucks my cock most everyday now, or I penetrate his bottom or both, I not gay, I just like Michael, as he really wanted to suck my cock, he and I have both been screen for STD's and he is only guy I do this with though and Michael very much wants/needs the sexual attention from straight guys. As you likely know, he is transsexual like if you don't know, transsexual types are usually not attracted to gay men, he told me he used to watch you and your ex-husband having sex a lot after you divorced his real father, Michael told me he knew then that he was transsexual type because he only want to be sexual as you were doing, be like a girl or take the female-role sexually".
Nina, "did Michael say how often, how many years he was watching me have sex?".
Rod, "from age 6 until you move here from across the street"
Nina, "that's like 4 years, we only lived in this house a short while, I have known he uses a mirror under the bathroom door to watch me when I shower frequently".
Nina, "thanks for informing me as to how Michael feels about sex, that he likes to watch me having sex with men and for me to see that you have a massive cock Rod, how long is it?".
Rod, "10 inches".
Nina, "and Michael can take it all up inside his bottom?".
Rod, "yes, Mom and Michael both do, he loves the feeling of me being inside him, I go slow of course, we did realize you be home early today, otherwise I would of been fucking him, we usually come here right after school so I can fuck him".
Nina, "so how long you been fucking your mom Rod?".
Rod, "since I was 11 years old, I'm 14 now".
Nina, "you fucking any other girls?".
Rod grins and says, "yes my Mom, and most of the ladies in the group that Mom, Michael and myself belong to. Nina now that your single, you could join or group if your interested, you seen what I have to offer a bit ago when you seen Michael sucking it, there are 104 guys and 86 females you could be with we are a closed group, we are all tested for STD's every year and only have sex with members".
Nina meekly says, "very tempting, how many of the ladies in the group have you fucked in the group?".
Rod says, "Mom and I have only belonged to the group for a few months, I only been with 15 of the ladies, I been so busy with Mom and Michael since I have sex with both of them nearly every day".
Nina says, " I can't believe how I feel Rod at this moment".
Rod replies, "tell me how you feel".
Nina, " you have got me so horny now, I want to suck your cock and have you fuck me while Michael watches".
Rod stands up, unbuttons his pants, unzips his pants the pulls them completely off, then steps over to Nina, she takes a hold of his cock and starts licking and kissing it, goes lower and licks and gently sucks his huge balls then back up and takes takes his cock head in her mouth.
Rod, "thats a good girl worship that big black cock".
Nina mumbles, "oh you taste so, so good, I know now that, I so much want to belong to you as your slut".
Rod, "yeah Nina, your going be a good slut for me, take all the time you want, Nina would you like to be my full time submissive like Michael is now, and can try fuck you both every day, I'd love to have both of you serving mom like Michael does as well".
Nina meekly says, "oh yes, I want to serve your Mom so much too!, I have never sucked pussy, but I want to suck your mom's pussy now".
Rod, "should we go get Michael so he can watch us have sex?".
Nina, "yes, you go get him, I'll douche and get naked, I want Michael to fuck me now as well".
Rod and Nina walk down the hall,
Nina says, "meet you two in living room"
Nina goes into the bathroom as Rod walks on to Michael's bedroom.
Walking into Michael's bedroom, Rod says, "Michael come with me to the living room, your mom and I have a surprise for you"
Michael follows Rod to the living room where they both get seated on the couch.
Michael says, "what on earth is going on?".
Rod says, "just wait, you'll like it".
Nina comes walking into the living room naked and smiling, looks at Michael as she gets on her knees in front of Rod and takes his cock in her hand and starts stroking it.
Nina, "we thought you might like to watch, is that correct Michael?".
I mumble meekly and say, "yes".
Nina, "Michael, get your pants off and stroke your cock so I can see you excited, tell me how much you love watching me have sex, I know you very much prefer cock, but tell me you want to fuck me too!".
Michael, "I so much love to watch you sucking cock, getting fucked all the time, it turns in on beyond words".
I stand and do as told, then sit back down, my cock hard as a rock.
Nina, "so you are really turned on Michael, be careful just don't ejaculate to quickly, tell when your ready to, I want you to cum in my mouth so I can taste it and swallow it".
Nina starts sucking Rods cock, Michael's eye glued to what was before him going on as he jacks off.
Michael, "Mom I'm going cum!".
Nina turns to Michael and quickly gets her lips wrapped around Michael's cock head".
Michael squirms and jerks about as he begins ejaculating in his Mom's mouth"
Nina murmurs with delight as Michael cums in her mouth.
Nina pulls Michael cock out of her mouth, smiles and says, "oh your cum tastes wonderful".
Nina returns to sucking Rod's cock.
Rod says, "Michael, your mom wants to serve me as my submissive just as you do Michael, so you'll be seeing her naked a lot now, I want her sucking you a lot and you fucking her a lot".
Nina mumbles, "no more needing to sneak around Michael, tell me to suck your cock all you want now".
Rod, "Nina is that pussy of yours's getting good and wet".
Nina looks up at him and meekly say, "I'm soaking wet".
Rod, "move out on the floor, get on your hands and knees, I wanta get my cock in that wet pussy".
Nina crawls out on the carpet a ways, then poses there on her hands and knees"
Rod, "Michael go kneel in front of your mom so she can get your cock hard again".
I do as told.
Rod gets behind Nina, then gets his cock head started into her pussy, Nina whimpers, then moans and squirms as Rod slowly pushes his cock up in side her.
Rod says, "Nina, take Michael's cock in your mouth"
Nina eagerly, starts sucking Michaels cock head, his balls as she works at getting him erect again".
Rod, "Nina, I can't wait til I get to see Michael is fucking you and Michael sucking your pussy".
Rod starts fingering Nina's clit, "you are soaked, Michael slide under her so you can lick her pussy and she can suck your cock".
Michael does, and soon is vigorously sucking his mom's clit.
Nina squirms and squeals,
Rod, "yeah soon Michael and I will be double penetrating you Nina, you'll like that wouldn't you Nina?'.
Nina mumbles meekly, "yes, so much".
Rod, "Nina do you like Michael's hard cock in your mouth, do you want Michael to start butt-fucking you?
Nina cries out beggingly, "yes, Michael please butt-fuck me now so I can suck Rod's cock, please, there is so Vaseline on the bathroom counter".
Rod pulls his cock out and stands then kneels in front Nina, she starts sucking his cock as Michael hurries to the bathroom.
Michael returns, gets on his knees behind Nina, lubes his cock with Vaseline then holds his hard cock as he
gets his cock slipped into his mom's butt, Nina moans as Michael slowly pushes his cock up inside her.
Nina cries out, "fuck me good Michael, make me your whore!".
Michael steadily fucks her.
Rod, "this is really life changing for you two now, no going back, good to see you like sex with each other, it's so hot!".
Nina squeals out, "I want you both to make me your whore and fuck me silly every day from now on".
Rod, "you want me to move in with you Nina?".
Nina, "yes, please, I want your cock as much as I can get".
Michael cries out, "Mom I'm cumming in your butt!", he squirms and gasps as he ejaculates up inside her.
Michael holds himself in her as he meekly says, "I'm sorry, just this is just overwhelmingly exciting for me".
Nina giggles and says, "I surprised you lasted this long, you'll get better the more you fuck me".
Michael stands and says, "I'll go get a warm bowl of water and wash rag, be right back".
Rod says, "Nina lets get you on your back so I can look at you as I fuck you". Rod stands as Nina drops to the floor and rolls over onto her back and spreads her legs, Rod gets between her legs and gets his cock started into her pussy.
Nina smiles up at him and moans and whimpers as Rod slowly pushes his fat 10 inch cock depth up inside her, she gasps and whines as it goes deeper, until all 10 inches is up in her Rod stops and holds it tightly up in her as she gasps and squeals.
Nina meekly calls out, "oh my, oh my, you own me now, I going cum!".
Nina jerks about as she squeals and yelps out.
Rod holds his cock tightly in her as he says, "yeah that's what I want see you doing, cumming and squealing!, good girl".
Nina cries out, "oh call me your slut, fuck my brains please".
Rod, "yeah, your my slut now, beg for that cock you slut!".
Nina cries out, "please, oh please, I need your cock in me so much".
Rod pull his cock nearly completely out, then slams it complete back up inside her and holds it there.
Nina screams out, then gasps and squeals constantly.
Rod, does it it again, nearly all the way, slams it back in.
Nina cries out, "I'm cumming again, please don't stop fuck me me hard, tell me I a good slut for you".
Rod, "I'm going turn you into a real slut for sure, tell me you want gang-bang slut!".
Nina cries, "do what you want with me,, let all you friends use me as their slut too!".
Rod, "I planning on it, I want to see you getting gang-banged by 30 at guys at once by this weekend".
Nina, "I gang-banged so much, by as many guys as you want".
Michael walks back in with bowl of warm water, towel and wash rag and sits down.
Nina moans out, "Michael go let Cosso in, I want him to start fucking me too!".
Michael stands and heads for the back door to get Cosso.
Rod smiles and says, "that's a good slut, I've got some friends with big stud dogs that you'll be getting fucked by too, as well as the owners".
Nina, "just tell me what to do, and take me to them or bring them here, tell you have a new horny slut that needs all the cock she can get!".
Rod replies, "you been gang-banged before?".
Nina says, "no but I want it badly, please have me getting gang-banged every Friday and Saturday, as many guys that want me".
Rod says, "consider it done, this Friday evening, and noon til 8 pm or until guys stop showing up Saturday".
Nina, "I ready to perform for all of you".
Rod, "they will be from 12 years old to 60 years old".
Nina, "any age, as long as they can get hard and are clean and safe".
Rod replies, "oh they are clean and safe, they will want you alone as well".
Nina, "I'm only 32 years old, I got the energy, I can be ready for them after 6pm during the week days, but available 7 days a week, I usually come home for a hour at lunch, they can fuck me, get a blow then as well, I love to be getting fucked every day at lunch".
Cosso comes walking into the living room, instantly starts checking Nina out as Rod stands and sits on the couch and washes his penis, then dries it.
Nina gets on her hands and knees, Cosso starts getting excited, as surely it makes him think, "this is position Michael is in when he studs Michael".
Michael watches, then says, "get ready Mom, he's going mount you".
Sure enough, Cosso is up on Nina's back, then thrusting into with his cock trying to find her vagina to slip into.
Nina cries out, "oh Cosso your in me now".
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Cosso wildly starts fucking her, in about 30 seconds Nina is squealing as Cosso's grows erect and knot quickly swells up inside her pussy.
Nina squeals non-stop as Cosso holds her tightly and rapidly thrust hard and fast into Nina.
Nina cries, "oh, oh my!!!!, your growing huge up inside me Cosso, feel like a ballon inflating in me".
Michael, "he is huge when he swells up, he'll hold you with his knot 10-15 minutes now".
Nina drops her chest to the floor reaches under herself and wildly rubs her own clit as she moans and whimpers.
Nina mumbles, "I'm cumming!".
After Nina finishes her orgasm she says, "Michael come sit in front of me, we'll see if we can get you hard again".
Michael goes and sits down in front of her, scoots to her so she can get his cock in her mouth.
Nina looking at him says, " your already hard as a rock". then she eagerly starts sucking his cock".
Rod says, "great scene, so glad all is going well".
Michael, "yeah it is great, didn't know if it would bother you mom, that is having sex with me".
Nina, "I didn't know either, but now I know it's wonderful, I want you and Cosso fucking me all the time Nina, Michael, I can see why you love being bred by Cosso now".
Michael, "yes I love to be".
Rod, "likely if not sooner that Friday, Nina you'll be getting fucked by most likely 10 to 20 guys at least, once they have fucked you they will want you again and again, the group of guys I'm ganged up with you say just mainly fuck moms, hope you like pussy Nina, because soon you'll be sucking on all the ladies".
Nina, "I'm going do what you want me to, I trust you, how many moms are you fucking now Rod?".
Rod, "currently there are about 15 moms that I regularly stud every month".
Nina, "how many have big stud dogs?.
Rod, "I've heard that 99% of them a getting studded by their own dog or one of the other ladies or guys dogs, I think 33 of the ladies now have a mature stud dog, all the guys and ladies in our group get STD tested yearly, one of the mom in our group as a husband that is a G P doctor and has his own clinic, it's Monday now, so what would be a good time in your schedule for me to get you appointment this week to get you and Michael tested?".
Nina, "sooner the better, anytime, set it up, we go when told".
Rod, "easy enough, I call and set it up tomorrow, or tell them your with my group, if they want you to call, the Doctor's office, he knows we have zoosexuals and incestuous moms in our group, he is a cuckold type, he like to watch his wife with us guys".
Nina, "the cuckold thing is fairly common as well, I know of quite a few cases myself actually".
Rod, "I'd love you two to meet Annie, she is the Doc's wife, she is also a submissive bi-sexual, In love it if Nina, you are her could start being sexually intimate".
Nina, "yeah invite her over one night this week, what about your mom?".
Rod, "duh, I want her to come meet you two asp, she has sex with all the guys and ladies in the group as well, she is a Dom bi-sexual and a hottie". -change-
Nina, "what is her name and do you have sex with her?".
Rod, "her name is Lucy, single and yes her and I have sex".
Nina, "I think I like a Dom type to get me started on the bi-sexual relationship, I not a Dom type sexually".
Rod, "I can call her right now and see what she is up to".
Cosso starts pulling out, Nina starts squealing, with a pop he pulls out, Michael hurries and gets wash cloth and gently cleans Cosso's still swollen cock".
Nina, "Wow, Cosso that was some fuck!".
Nina, "yeah call Lucy, she can come over tonight or any time this week after 5:30pm".
Rod hops up and heads to the Kitchen.
Nina, "I been talking to Aunt Becky last night, and now that I'm divorced from your set-father she wants us to the farm, so that is what we are going to do, put the house up for sale and go live in the country, and join the Jensen Group, hopefully we can get Rod, Lucy and his group to join as well".
Michael, "that's great, and yes I hope Rod, Lucy and his group members will want to join".
Rod walks back in, "yeah mom is coming over right now".
Nina, "I have something to say, which I should of earlier, yet was undecided, my Aunt Becky has wanted me to move out to her farm to live forever, yet I needed to be divorce from Michael's step-father, now I am and her and I talked last night, but now that Michael and I have had sex, I decided it is the best place for us, as she is one of the administrators for a large group, where mother/son incest is the tradition, as well as the female members having sex with their large stud dogs, we like your mom and you to join, and your other group members as well".
Rod, "this group wouldn't happen to be called the Jensen Group would it?".
Nina, "yes, how would you know that?".
Rod, "I worked for Jensen lawn and landscaping this last summer, and one of the Jensen guys did the same, invited Mom and I and our group to merge with their group, and we have been discussing it within our group, and it seems all our members wish to now".
Nina, "perfect, I'll call Aunt Becky right now and let her know so we can get the ball rolling".
Nina hops up, runs and gets a robe, then calls Aunt Becky from her bedroom.
Michael and Rod get dressed.
Michael, "oh this is wonderful Rod, you and I will be going to the Jensen Group school now, living in the country, my dream come true, can't wait til I can show you around the farm".
Nina comes walking back out and sits down.
Nina, "Aunt Becky invited us all out now if that works, or tomorrow maybe".
Michael, "I have something to tell both you and Rod, I've been a owned submissive for a man since I was 9 years old, on the summer I turned 9, I love him, his name is William and he is 56 years old now, he also belongs to a closed group similar to the Jensen Group, there are both males and females in group, submissives etc..
Winter of 1970
How ever the first time I got fucked a Adult was by my Scout leader Bob,
it was the winter of 1970 when we'd go swimming at the Research Hospital swimming pool.
Bob surprised me from behind when I was in water just deep enough where I couldn't touch my feet to the bottom, he quickly grabbed me super tight around the chest, rendering me helpless, then with the other hand he yanked my swim trunks down then quickly slid his erect penis up inside my bottom, all the while telling me to remain quiet as he held me very tight and with quick short, hard thrusts of his penis up inside me, until he ejaculated, then he let me go like nothing happened, he'd say it's our secret.
Though it was traumatic the first time, I'd be longing to suck a adult Man cock and get fuck, I very much was Bob's very eager consenting partner all times afterwards, once I felt is big Man's penis sliding in and out of my bottom, it was all I could think about, and I so much want a Man's penis in me again and again!
Within a week after Bob was butt-fucking me, I offer myself to my Great dane Cosso and he soon had me locked in a copulatory-tie, and he was soon fucking me often as well.
After that Bob was fucking me twice a week or every time we went swimming at the pool, it was like he had me under a spell or trained to submit, after the first time he'd fucked me, he'd wait for me at the far end of the pool, once I seen him there I'd swim down to him stand, then turn so my back was to him, I'd allow him to pull my swim trunks down, and quickly slide his penis up side my bottom, he'd always be very hard already and his had what seemed like very large penis yet I actually hadn't seen it yet, due to being under water his penis would easily slide up inside me, within 30 seconds and quick hard short thrusts into me with his penis until he'd ejaculated.
I'd then go back to being with the Scouts, a few nights he "bred" me several times, I started volunteering/offering myself to him during the evenings, he'd had me start meeting him in the showers, have me suck his penis a bit then he "breed" in the shower stall with the water running on us. I guess I let him do it to me because I looked up to him as a Man and he was cute, and I just loved the feeling of having his penis up inside me, in a strange way it was like he had me under a spell of sorts, yet I liked it so much, having a penis up inside me made me feel girly and I wanted so much to feel girly, so just kept letting him do it. Bob only lived about a 10-minute bike ride for our house, so by the time I was 10 years old Bob screwed me and/or had me sucking his cock 3 or 4 time a week until I was 11 years old.
One day Bob asked me if I'd be interested in meeting some men that I been talking to about you?
My reply was, "what have you told them about me ?".
Bob said, "just that you were a very sexy 8 year old that likes having sex with adult men, I told them that you love sucking cock and love getting butt-fucked, don't worry they are great guys, and I completely trust them".
I replied, "sure if you trust them,"
Then one day in July 1971,
Age 9, I was at Bob's and just finished giving him a blow-job when a guy about 25 shows up at Bob's, Bob introduce me to his friend as James, then Bob look at me and said, "Michael, how would you like to give James a blow-job, James has a nice big cock that I bet you'd like!, I thought James was nice, and cute, so I meekly said, "yes, James then sat on the couch, I got on my knees on the floor in front of James and got his shorts pulled off, by the time I had his shorts completely off, James cock was fully erect, I eagerly started sucking it, as I did, Bob got behind me, lubed my bottom then push his own hard cock up inside me. Bob slowly slid his cock in and out of me as I sucked James cock, soon James then said, "Michael I have three friends that are looking for a young guy like you who will start giving us blow-jobs on a regular basis, maybe butt fuck you too, would you be interested in meeting them today?"
I was at Bob's at 7pm, Greg was waiting for me, he told me that I had a date with William and Jake the English Mastiff, so we hopped in his car and headed to William's house.
Needless to say, I was super excited, it was only about a 10 minute drive to William's, as we walked to the backdoor of William's place, we could hear woof, woof!, "that's Vern", I replied, "I hope he wants me", Greg chuckled, and said, "I'm sure he will". as we got to the door, William opened it wearing his bath robe, he said come on in and let Vern welcome you Michael, me as well, we both have been eager to meet you.
William lead us to the living room, then he told us to take a seat, as soon as I was seated William stood in front of me opened his robe and said, "Michael this is what I have to offer you, hope you like". I just stared at his big black semi erect cock for a moment, looked up at William and said, "can I start sucking it?", William replied, let me sit, Michael you get on your knees in front of me, and maybe Vern will mount you, lets see what happens".
That's just what we did, as I licked, kissed and sucked William's semi-erect cock it quickly got fully erect.
William moaned and said, "that's a good sissy-boy, worship that big black cock, you need a black Master like don't you Michael?, you going be my sissy slut boy from now on?".
I mumbled, "yes, I need to belong to you, use me as you see fit please!".
Wiggle that cute little ass around, Vern is already looking very interested in studding you".
I started wiggling my bottom as Vern sniffed me, then started licking my bottom, then the next thing I know Vern's huge body is up on my back, then I feel the tip of Vern's penis poking trying to find my butt hole as he humps me vigorously, which he does rather quickly, as I feel his penis enter my bottom, then with each thrust it goes deeper up inside me as I whimper and try to keep sucking Williams cock.
William, "he is determined to get it stuck",
About as soon as William finishes saying that, I feel Vern's seemingly huge knot swells up inside me, I started squirming and loudly whimpering as Vern's knot and cock swell bigger and bigger inside me".
William, "that's a good boy, fill your new sissy-bitch's boy pussy with that hot dog cum"
I moan out, "he is, his cock is throbbing and hot in me!, oh Vern I wanta be your full time sissy-bitch so much".
William, "Michael now as he fills you with cum, get to sucking my cock, I want to see your mouth full of my cock, suck it you sissy-bitch!, then I'll shove it up you butt when Vern is done with you, your going start coming and seeing us daily Michael, that's what I expect you to be doing from now on, at least until school restarts".
I mumble as I say, "William what is your work schedule?".
William, "I'm retired from Air force, so I don't have a work schedule, so be at Bob's at 8:30 Monday thru. Friday and I pick you up and bring you back here, I've been at this awhile so I own 15 submissives, age 10 to 40 years old, you'll be be number 16#, you'll also be my only completely female roled receptive submissive, so all 15 of my submissives will take you as their submissive, so you'll be getting fucked by all of them, performing fellatio on all of them from now on.
Michael, tomorrow you'll be serving at least 10 of them likely, I can get all 15 here between 9am and 4:30 pm, then all of them can fuck you tomorrow, we see, but you'll be getting fucked and sucking cock all day, Monday thru Friday".
I reply meekly, "I want to do whatever you want me to do William".
William, "thats what I expect, do you have dress you can wear, I want you looking like girly-boy for everyone from now on, if not I get you some dresses or at least pay for them, but we can go shopping and you can pick out so dresses you like".
I reply, "I'd like that a lot".
William, "the 5 oldest of my submissives have English Mastiff stud dogs, they will all be fucking you regularly, along with Jake and Vern, then two of my submissives have English Mastiffs yet they will not be mature as stud dogs, I also have 6 female submissives that you'll be a submissive for, you'll be performing cunninglingus on them, and if the wish for you to butt fucking them when you hit puberty, or when you can get erect in order to fuck them, you'll do as they wish, so I plan on you being my submissive until I die or just plain to old".
I reply meekly, "you own me now, so I belong to you forever". (I was simply sure I wanted William that much).
William, "Michael do you have a douche bottle and latex dildo for use in cleaning your bottom to prepare for anally sex?".
I replied, "Bob gave me a douche bottle, I been using either mineral oil or vegetable oil in it, I douched before coming over tonight".
William, "let me get you a dildo, Stan one of my older subs makes really nice latex dildos for all my subs, be right back".
As William stands and walks away, Greg tells me to get on my knees and start sucking his cock, so I do".
Greg says, "Michael suck on those big balls for awhile".
I take one of Greg's balls completely in my mouth and gentle suck on it.
Greg, "Michael, your going be a great sissy sub for all us guys and dogs".
Vern starts pulling out of me, causing me let Greg's ball fall out of my mouth as I whimper and squeal as his big knot suddenly pops out of me".
I look up at Greg and mumble, "that felt like a huge knot!".
Greg, ' he does have huge knot, get down and lick and suck Vern's cock clean Michael".
I do as told.
I hear William say, "you belong to Vern now Michael, get that cock of his licked clean, then I want to feel my cock up in that tight young ass of your's".
In minutes William is getting me so I am laying my chest on the couch, then he slowly starts sliding his big black cock up inside me, I start squealing and squirming about as it slides deeper and deeper up inside me.
William, "oh Michael your so nice and tight, it feels wonderful, oh you going be a great sissy slut for me to fuck!".
I mumble, "oh you feel so good up inside me, please don't stop".
William fucked me nice and slowly for about 10 minutes, then said, "Michael I'm going go ahead and cum in your butt since your already full of Vern's cum".
William pulls me firmly onto his cock then starts huffing and puffing as he starts ejaculating up inside me.
As soon as William gets his cock pulled out of me, Greg is right there sliding his hard cock up inside me, I start squealing and squirming all over again.
Following week
William was retired, so William would pick me up at 8:30 am, bring me home at 4pm every day, his English Mastiff "Jake" started fucking me every day at least once, that week.
William make it very clear to me that he wanted me as his submissive
William was going to start arranging things for me,
Which of the group dogs that I be getting bred by as there were 34 large intact male stud dogs in the group.
I would be performing cunninglingus on all 34 of the female group members who owned the dogs.
Michael, "Mom when you first started seeing my step-father, and you and him would have sex, you's would wake me up and you's wouldn't complete close the door between your bedroom and my bedroom, so I get up and watch you and him having sex, you sucking his cock made the biggest impression on me.
I can remember him walking through my bedroom completely naked to go to the bathroom, I'd dream of sucking his big cock.
May of 1969, right before I turned 7, I started sucking Edward's cock, then started sucking Meredith's cock, then Kevin's, then Cosso's, then Bob's, on and on".
Nina, "I don't know how to reply to that, were you already a feminine homosexual boy, you were 6 years old when your step-father and I were carrying on like that, we were selfish new lovers blind to all around us". I'm happy you turned out the way you have, I actually I'm very happy that you and I can have sex now".
Michael, "your responding great, your accepting me as I am".
Nina, "I could of been better mom, paid more attention to you, since I divorce your father, I've been selfish I realize now".
Michael smiles, "you've always had supper ready at 6pm!, taken me to doctor, swimming at the club".
Nina, "yeah, thanks".
Nina, "if William has been fucking you for the last 3 1/2 years, plus all his other group guys, you already had more partners then most people have in a life-time".
Michael, "yeah, but that goes along with being who I am, for me I want my role to be serving others sexually".
Nina, " I hoping his group can join the Jensen group?".
Rod, " William is the founder of our group, Mom and I just joined about 6 months ago, so haven't met many of the members yet, but William fucks mom, and he is a great guy".
Nina, "good enough, Michael I need you to have William come see us now if possible".
Michael, "ok I go call him".
Michael goes in the kitchen and calls.
Nina, "Rod how many members of this group do you know?".
Rod, "I been with about 15 of the ladies, I know about 20 of the guys from the group because we all gang-bang Michael regularly".
Michael comes walking back in and sits down.
Michael, "William is on his way over right now".
Rod, giggling says, we should told him to pick-up mom".
Nina, "how often does your Mom see William?".
Rod, "not sure, because all the male members that are straight fuck her, and they come to the house, thats how I know them, I did know William likes young boys".
Michael, "Mom please be nice to William, I want to have sex with him and the other men, they've taught me how to serve men sexually very well, they all have treated me nicely and I crave their sexually attention". William made it very clear to me that he wanted me as his submissive and wanted him with him as much as possible when I was 9, and I need a Dominate Man like him to belong to".
Nina, "I will be, if you were a member of the Jensen at this moment you be getting fucked by all the men anyway".
Michael, "so as soon as I join, you will ok it that all the adult men can use me for sex?".
Nina, "yes, I likely would of allowed you to have sex with the men when you were 8 years old knowing what I know now, I know you need the sex or the sexual attention from straight men, the dogs, ponies and jack donkeys to be happy. Aunt Becky knows it as well, you need the Affirmation of being treated like a girl sexually, and I much rather you have straight male partners then gay partners, that is part of being a transsexual type".
Michael, "Mom, I wish you could of been able to teach me how to perform cunninglingus on you when I was 8 years old, then I could have been doing that for you the last 4 years, because now I know that my main value/purpose in life is to serve others sexually, so thanks for understanding mom, most moms likely wouldn't".
Nina, "I wish a lot of things were different from then, like never marrying your step-father, most moms don't have a son that wishes he was a girl, if I knew then what I know now, I would have had you performing cunninglingus on me, bathing with, treating you like a girl in the ways you wished".
Rod, "I can't say anything bad about William, I love fucking Michael, and might of when he was 8 years old and say I was 30 years old".
Michael, "you have to remember, I was begging William for his sexual attention and the other group members, especially the Adult males".
A car pulls in drive, Rod looks out the window.
Rod, " it's Mom, I told to come to back door, I go greet her".
Rod walks to back door.
Michael, "yeah I told William to come to back as well, he lives out at Lake Braken, so going take longer".
Nina, "did you ride your bike out there?".
Michael, "I have, but he usually picks me up here in the summer then at my friend Greg's during school time".
Nina, "Greg a part of William's group?".
Michael, "yep, he also uses me for sex, he lives right by Nellie Swanson school".
Nina, "so he fucks you a lot?'.
Michael, "yes, 4 -6 times a week usually, plus there are two guys that live there that are group members, plus other group members come over, they gang-bang me a lot there and at Williams, so I'm used to being gang-banged by a lot of guys at once now".
Rod walks in the living room with mom Lucy and introduces her to Nina".
Nina giggles, "yeah this isn't something most mom are discussing would you say Lucy?".
Lucy giggling, "no not a mainstream situation I don't image".
Lucy, "but not likely that your son fucks you and me both, and my son fucks you and me both, and William fucks me and Michael both and likely soon will be fucking you Nina".
Nina, "yeah, it just dawned on your son fucks me and my son, not my daughter my son!".
A car pulls in, Michael looks out, "it's William, I'll go let him in".
Nina, "Lucy, how do you like, living in this group life style, I guess is the way to put it".
Lucy, "I love it, wouldn't want to live any other way now that I experienced it, plus being a incestuous mom, I get to have friendships with other moms like myself, there again and they have sex with my son as well".
Nina, "Rod was telling me you were a Dom type female".
Lucy, "yes, pretty much, at least with the ladies".
Nina, "I'd love to be your free-use type submissive, I have no experience serving females sexually so I need to be firmly trained, treated like a slut, have you tell me what do".
Lucy, "I know for work you have dress appropriately, yet all other times I want you dressing like the free-use slut that you are, we will get you a collar to wear, you need to be constantly be ready to get gang-banged, you'll be licking and sucking my pussy a lot while your getting fucked by guys and dogs, we have 63 mature stud dogs currently in the group, in a month I want you to have been fucked by all of them at least once, and sucking the ladies that they live with, we have 1- 8 yr old, 2- 9 year olds, 3- 10 yr olds, 3- 11 year old boys, 4- 12 yr olds, 6-13 year olds, 2-14 years, I want you to only been serving them, all the ladies and William sexually beside the dogs, William is a Dom to all us ladies, I'll start taking you around and meeting all the ladies and boys".
Nina, "are the boy 8 years to 10 yr. able to erect and have me perform fellatio on them?".
Lucy, "yes, these 6 boys can, they will like having you suck them, you'll see once you meet them, then as they grow older, they'll know your purpose is to serve them sexually when they wish, from now on your just a sex object for everybody's use, plain and simply, and that is the way Michael will always be, and he wants to be, everybody has a purpose, and I never seen anybody so devoted to serving sexually like Michael, he was born to be a sissy-slut. For the last 4 years, Michael has taken a bath with me every 2 days, washed me, my hair, shaved my pussy, performed cunninglingus on me, he is a true master at performing cunninglingus now".
Nina, "so you know Michael well, much better than me!".
Michael and William walk in; Michael introduces Nina and William".
William, "just curious but does your Aunt Becky wish us to come out?".
Nina, "yes, if everybody here is ready to go out, let me call her and tell her that we are on our way".
Nina walks to the kitchen and calls.
William, "I brought the van, so I figured we all could ride out together".
Lucy, "sounds like plan, we all can talk longer as well".
Nina, "ok, lets head out, it's about a 15 minute drive north, toward Eldridge".
William, "Nina, I figured that all of us could ride in the van if that's ok".
Nina, "yep, I ride up front with you, so can give directions".
They all head out and pile in the van.
As they get headed down the road, Nina says to William, "how long have you had your group".
William, "right at 5 years".
Nina, "so then how did you happen to meet Michael ".
William, "a couple of our group members just started having sex with him, which was about 4 years ago, they brought Michael over to meet me, he and I had sex, my English Mastiff Jake studded him as well, I asked him to be my submissive, which he has been for the last 4 years, so I am very grateful for your understanding Nina, as I don't want to lose Michael as my submissive".
Nina, "no I agree, I know he loves you, and very much wants to be your submissive
William, "about how many members does the Jensen Group have?".
Nina, "Aunt Becky told me last night that there are 450 males over 12 years old, about 300 consenting age females over 14."
William, "that's the number that I thought I heard, it has been a topic of joining all this summer, Rod was working at Jensen lawn and Landscaping and we were invited to consider joining, I think most if not all our members now do wish to join".
Nina, "how large in number is your group Willliam?".
William, "we have 104 male members, including Michael and 86 female members currently".
Nina, "that is a good size group, it closed, every year STD tested all that?.
William, "that's correct, so Michael has always been tested since he was 8 years old, we have a doctor who is a member, he administers the tests".
Nina, "like the Jensen Group has harem girls and harem sissys, their main duty is to serve all members sexually, thus they are all collared submissive types, does you group have similar structure".
William, "we have submissives, which Michael is one, he serves the females as well, yet the way I understood the Jensen Group, we have many female members whom are receptive sexually for the stud dogs, members mainly work for the group in one of it's many businesses, housing is paid for one lives on Jensen Group property, food is paid for, health care, schooling k though 12, Jensen Group is like a closed society almost, it also has the number one rating in the state for academics, so Jensen Group is very organized, almost like a business in it's self, you have farming, a stallion farm, cattle, and the businesses, plus many satellite groups around the country and world".
Nina, "that's what Aunt Becky is for, she knows all the details in a current standing, as you know, your always growing in membership it seems".
William, "I'm sure Michael will become a harem sissy, what about you Nina".
Nina, "I am thinking of becoming a harem girl, I love sex and I'm sexually very submissive, out curiosity how many stud dogs are available sexually in your group?".
William smiles, "as of now there are 63 mature stud dogs, and 14 that are soon to be mature, about 80% of the dogs live with female members".
Nina, "yeah I need to be serving all the women then, even with the women, I wish to be a free-use type submissive, I've had my tubes tied, were in the Jensen Group, if a female isn't sterile she has to have anally sex unless she is trying to get pregnant".
Nina, "once you go past Ben's general store, turn right at the four way stop, then it is several miles, there will be an old windmill on the left, we turn on the gravel lane right there".
William, "ok, that's easy enough, so how do you feel about me fucking Michael and you both from now on?".
Nina, "I like the idea, Michael fucked me for the first time today, and I gave him a blow-job, so all good, and I want you to fuck us both as you wish".
William giggles, "if we had further to go, I'd tell you to give me a blow-job".
Nina, "I like to be told, so maybe on the way back, tell me to, Michael told me you have big fat 10 inch cock so I'm excited to be getting to suck it and have it in my pussy and bottom often".
William, "it's a deal, looking forward to listening to squeal as you climax and I intend for you to be serving me as my slut very often, watching you getting gang-banged often and by a lot of guys at once, watching all that cum squirting in your mouth, watching swallow it!".
Nina, "oh my, your getting me all wet William".
William, "that is my goal".
Nina, "works for me, here we are up on the left, just 50 feet maybe pass windmill".
William turns onto the lane and follows it back.
William, "this is nice that it is a good distance off the back top".
Nina, "yeah, it is nice and secluded back here, in the distance to the right is Susan's stallion ranch, she is a group member, over on the left is Ed and Caroline's farm, they are both members, so it is very private, we are very lucky in that regard, behind Aunt Becky's about a 1/4 of mile is a very large old quarry lake, beautiful clear water, and over a 100 feet deep in deepest part".
William, "and this must be Aunt Becky's home".
Nina, "yep, just pull right up in front of the door".
William pulls up, puts it in park and shuts it off.
Aunt Becky steps out of the back door and walks to Nina's window,.
Aunt Becky, "hi everybody, I was thinking since you all here in the van, why don't we drive to Jensen Estates 1# and sit down, even have a meal if your hungry, plus I get to show you a bit of how we live"
William says, " I'm William, I be your driver Aunt Becky, hop in".
Aunt Becky slides the side door open and climbs in the back and sits down.
Lucy says, "hi, I'm Lucy, please to meet you Aunt Becky,". they shake hands.
Rod extends his hand, "hi I'm Rod, please to meet you Aunt Becky".
Aunt Becky, "yes pleased to meet all of you, and welcome, ask me anything, I hope I might know".
Lucy, "well Nina has told us a lot, a enough to have a good grasp of the structure of the group, I guess for me detail about living out here is of great interest".
Aunt Becky, " we do like our members to live here on our properties, yet you don't have to, if you live on one of the Jensen group properties, we base that cost on your earnings, its 10% of that, so if you make 18,000 a year, your yearly rent is 1,800 dollars, we pay all utilities, lawn care, we buy all members at 16 years of age a new car, then all driving members a new car once their existing car has 80,000 miles on it or is over 10 years old, you'll soon see the type of homes we have, they are a Quonset hut style, fairly wind proof, very low outside maintenance, cute I think".
Nina, "William turn left into the Estates in about 1/4 mile, you see".
William, "got ya",
William turns onto the lane to the Estates.
Nina, "just follow it all the way back, the Estates clubhouse you'll see".
Lucy, "yes, these homes are cute, I like them".
Aunt Becky, "Lucy it will be just you and Rod that needs a home".
Lucy, "yep, correct".
Aunt Becky, "we have our own realtor, in essence we buy your home from at market value, then we take care of getting it sold, we take 10% off any profit of the sale, then after a year we start taking the 10% from your wages or you can try selling it yourself, either way is fine with us".
Aunt Becky, "we have two major traditions at Jensen Group, Mother/son incest and most females 16 yrs and older are receptive zoosexuals with large intact male dogs".
Aunt Becky, "don't let sound like I'm trying to sell you on being a member, as I really not, however seldom does a member leave the group, and thats always been because their job took them to somewhere where we don't have a Jensen Group satellite estates, we have satellite estates in Florda, Kentucky, Washington State, and several foreign countries, a word of warning, a tradition is shaved smooth pubic hair, don't want to have you suddenly feel out of place, say in a gang-bang event, we have our own Electrolysis clinic. we have our own free medical clinic, if your a Jensen Group employee your medical insurance is fully paid for, if not you pay for our same blue cross insurance if you chose, you pay 5% of your earnings for that. All members who live on our estates, have a 200 dollar a month food allowance per person, just keep your receipts, school, k through 12 is fully paid for, Jensen Group is structured like a non-profit corporation, that how we kept costs low. We assist with college, we have appentice programs, we have our own 2 private air strips one next door at Ed and Caroline and one a bit north of here on a members own private estate, we have a flight school at Davenport Airport.
William pulls up in front of the estates clubhouse, and parks/shuts engine off.
Aunt Becky, "lets head in, see whats going on, quite few cars here in parking area".
As they walk into the clubhouse, Lucy says to Nina, "when are you planning to be living out here full time?"
Nina, "I thought that Michael and I could be spending our nights at Aunt Becky's house by this weekend, just a idea, but we could talk about you and Rod living at Aunt Becky's if she has room, worth talking to her about it because it would be nice if Rod, Michael, you and me could be living under same roof".
Lucy, "I agree, lets talk to her about it, because I know for sure that out here is where we need to be".
Nina, "just so you know, one of premises the Jensen Group was founded on was helping black families better themselves economically, thus about 80% of Jensen Group members are black".
They all sit at a large table in the cafe area of the clubhouse.
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Age 12, May 1974, before moving to Aunt Becky's
Well my friend Shelly (I had been good friends with Shelly since 4th grade, she lived a block away from me) Shelly and I were walking home from school together when she cautiously said to me, "Michael, I was talking to Rod a few days ago and he told me you can suck your own cock, and he also told me you had been sucking his cock for quite a while and he was butt-fucking you quite a while".
I replied, "yes, he told me he'd like to be with you as well".
Shelly, "is Rod gentle with you?, I heard he has a huge cock".
I replied, "yes his cock is huge but he goes slow, but I'm also used to it now, plus Edward is fucking me know and his cock is 18 inches long, as well Cosso studs me often, his cock swells up very big when he knots up inside me".
Shelly, "Michael, I love to watch you suck your own cock and get fucked by Edward and Cosso if you don't mind".
I replied, "Cosso often fucks me as soon as I get home from school because Mom and step-father aren't home until 5:30 usually, so if you want to come to my place now you can watch Cosso fuck me and get me locked in a copulatory-tie".
Shelly, "so in a copulatory-tie, his cock swells up and is stuck up inside your bottom?".
I replied, "yep, he'll be stuck about 10-15 minutes up inside me, if we have time, I'll suck myself as well, Shelly do you play with yourself and have orgasms now?'.
Shelly, "yes, I have been for about a year now, but I'm still a virgin as far as be penetrated, Rod wants to start having sex with me but I'm not sure, I know your feminine homosexual type Michael but I'd really like you to be the first to penetrate me if you will?".
I reply, "I'll penetrate your bottom, but not your vagina, no way do we want to risk getting you pregnant".
Shelly, "teach me how to prepare my bottom, and it's a deal Michael".
We get to my house, I let Cosso out in the back-yard, then take Shelly into my bedroom, I get my 18 inch double-end dildo out, the douche bottle, drain pan and water bucket then Shelly and I go to the bathroom, I tell Shelly to try pooping, she does, as I fill the water bucket half full with warm water and toss a clean wash cloth in the bucket. Shelly tried to poopy, nothing there, so I tell her to take her shorts and underwear off and lean against the sink, I have her spread her legs apart enough so I can put the drain pan between her feet on the floor, I lube the dildo with mineral oil, lube her bottom, then inject some oil up inside her bottom, then gently start to push the dildo into her butt-hole.
I said to her, "tell me to stop if it is hurting, or whatever you want to say"
Shelly squirms and mumbles, "it seems ok, just slowly go please".
I worked at getting about 8 inches of the dildo in her where she was comfortable with me sliding the dildo in and out continuously, then I asked her if she like me to slide my cock up inside her, Shelly replied, "yes"
I got my cock hard then pushed my cock slowly up inside her.
Shelly whimpers as she moans out, "Michael it feels really nice, don't stop".
Shelly started rubbing her clit wildly and soon was squirming about, huffing and puffing as she climaxed, I pulled out and held her and kissed her neck until she turned, then we kissed passionately for awhile.
Shelly, "ok Michael, now let me watch you suck your own penis pretty please". we cleaned up everything in the bathroom, then head back to my bedroom, I got naked below the waist, then laid on the bed, brought my leggs up over my head then vigoriously started sucking my cock as Shelly sat on the bed and watched me suck my own penis until I ejaculated in my own mouth then ingested my semen.
Shelly then said, "ok now I wanta watch Cosso fuck you!".
I went to the back door and let Cosso in, he hung out with Shelly as I douched my bottom in the bathroom.
"when I douche my bottom I always run my 20 inch dildo up inside me"
Once I was douched I when back in bedroom put a towel on the floor, then got on my hands and knees for Cosso who knew the routine, in seconds he was humping away on me, in 30 seconds he had me in a copulatory-tie.
After about 10 minutes Cosso was able to pull out of me.
Shelly and I continued doing sexually things together until I moved to Aunt Becky's farm.
Shelly and I stayed in touch, then in 1980 when she turned 18 years old she moved to the farm
and joined the Jensen Group then became a "Harem Girl"
For myself, being cuckolded has to have the element of "compersion"
Examples of compersion:
In a polyamorous relationship involving three people, one partner feels a sense of genuine happiness and contentment when they see their two partners cuddling on the couch. They appreciate the strong bond forming between the other two. They feel that their connection strengthens the overall dynamic of the three-person unit.
In an open marriage, a husband experiences joy when his wife returns from a date looking happy and rejuvenated. He’s glad she had a positive experience and feels grateful that his wife has multiple people who bring her joy.
In a study of polyamorous and monogamous people, researchers explored how they expected to feel if their partner had romantic interests outside their relationship. People who had experience with a partner having other romantic interests tended to predict more compersion and less jealousy. Interestingly, this was especially true among monogamous partners.4
I very much know that I am a very inadequate romantic/sexual partner for a female, due the fact that I am an a "100% female-roled receptive sex partner for male canines, male equines and human males.
I feel being cuckolded by females is a type of adaptation that allows me to be involved intimately with a female I care deeply for by enjoying seeing her with another or having her telling me about her being with another after the fact.
"Because being a collared caged sissy cuckold for a dominate polyandrist female has always been the role I felt that was best for me,
I really almost consider being a submissive caged sissy cuckold/female-roled receptive zoosexual as my primary sexually orientation
and
have no sexual contact with humans.
More then anything, I need cuckolded by a female
I care deeply for, love
My Mom was my first true cuckoldress
Satadru the black history teacher suggests that the husband is identifying with his wife and vicariously experiences his homosexual desires.
This how I am, a female friend of mine would in essence become a ally for me, my desire would be to have my female friend ask her male lover(bull) to treat me like a female sexually as well while she watched me being feminized and emasculated (by me performing fellatio on her bull, and the bull penetrating me anally).
I've been in the above situation with two different females in my lifetime and it was extremely feminizing and emasculating for me, however it is also why I can't be in a intimate, romantic relationship with a female because I know I will soon want her to start cuckolding me, once that occurred in my two experiences the relationship soon ended, my female friends developed long term relationships with the bull.(The dominant man engaging with the cuckold's partner is called a "bull").
Living vicariously for myself is a very inherit part of being a third-gender type female-roled male.
This is one of the reasons that I feel made being a female-surrogate partner for my dogs and equine partners was so Ideal for me, they didn't care that I was a male, they treated me sexually just as they would a female of their own species.
I think because I routinely watched my mom having sex with my step-father from the time I was 6 years old until he left when I was 12 years old, I knew then I wanted to be in her role, and have a man treat me like she was being treated.
I started having sex with my Aunt Becky when I was 12 as well, yet I also was having sex with all her boyfriends, all of whom were between 13 to 16 years old, they all treated me like a girl, but I also got to watch them having sex with Aunt Becky and my Mom as well, I really liked being with Mom as the guys had sex with her, seeing how they could make her climax, feel good or watching her suck cock, or her and I sucked a guys cock together.
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Aunt Becky about it, plus Kevin would often come with me to spend weekends here at the farm with Aunt Becky, the three of us would go skinny dripping alot, soon Aunt Becky and Kevin started making love, I would be with them always".
Elle replies, "there is the cuckold thing again, did you perform fellatio on Kevin in from of Aunt Becky?".
Michael replies, "yes, very often, simply because I did so often, it might be as we were all down here swimming or just hanging out at the house, none of us needed to hide our sexuality".
Elle says, "when did you and Aunt Becky start making love?".
Michael replies, "I was publicly humiliated at school after someone started spreading the word that I was performing fellatio and being penetrated by guys, the word spread through school like wild fire, kids were yelling in the hall ways things like "Michael likes guys, Michael lets guys fuck him etc., I wanted to quit school. I developed severe checking, obsessive thoughts type OCD shortly after, which was nearly unbearable, that is when Aunt Becky stepped in and simply told mom that I was coming to the farm and live, and in turn start going to a new school, I was post-puberty so I was ejaculating or call it sexually mature, we were always skinny dipping in the lake together, it was just happened, it seems so natural for Aunt Becky and I to just start having sexual intercourse routinely even though I'm attracted to males, having sex with Aunt Becky was very intimate, it was a way I could make her feel good, then after Mom divorced my step father, which was about a year after I'd moved out to live with Aunt Becky, mom started coming out to go swimming, and well when you go swimming here! your naked, and mom liked laying out nude. Well by being here amongst us, all the Jensen guys, myself, Johnny, Susan, Caroline, and Jensen mom and daughters and us all having sex together it wasn't long before mom was a member of the group and having sex with all the Jensen guys, Johnny, then her and I started having full intercourse ,it turned out being the most wonderful experience, she felt the same way, we both very much enjoyed having intercourse with each other, thus we coninued to until Mom died suddenly of a heart defect in 1986".
Elle replies, "I'm so sorry Michael, I did want to ask you if you had any thought of sucide after the publicly humiliation?".
Michael replies, "once the OCD started and had persisted for about 6 months, and I feared I was losing my mind, going insane, yes then I began to feel that simply could no longer live in such away, so I very much owe my life to Aunt Becky for taking me with her".
Elle says, "I can't even imagine how deeply you must love her, can I ask, did you make love to Aunt Becky until she died?"
Michael replies, "yes, once her and I started making love, we always made love, usually at least 5 times a week, often more".
Elle says, "do you recall ever feeling jealous while seeing Aunt Becky and your mom having sex with other guys".
Michael replies, "no, why would I?, I loved seeing the guys make them feel good".
Elle replies, "good point, why would you seems a silly question when one realizes how much you loved each other, actually it seem a stupid question".
Michael replies, "yet it is what our society must think, our that question would not exist correct?, plus I'm a sissy cuckold type, I also know if Aunt Becky and Mom were alive today we'd be lovers (myself performing cunninglingus on them), and we'd be lovers for the rest of our lives the bond we had was as strong as any bond between two human beings that I can imagine".
As a sissy cuckold I have to love my Cuckoldress female
(it's important that my cuckoldress want me in that role)
(wants me to serve her male lovers in a female receptive role)
(for my cuckoldress I perform cunninglingus on her only)
One thing for me that is very defined is, as a sissy cuckold, the female that I am watching have sex with another man, I have to deeply care for/love,
I'd have no interest in being a voyeur and watching a unknown couple have sex, I don't care to watch porn, it isn't a turn on for me, yet watching my close friend Elle, my Mom, and my Aunt Becky cuckold me was extremely important to watch them having sex with other men and seeing the men pleasuring them.
Then having Mom, Aunt Becky and Elle watch as the guys treated me like girl, having me suck their cock and butt-fucking me.
I've always had a strong need to belong to and serve a female cuckoldress as her Valet or Lackey (maleservant) in a polyandry partnership, where I'm a sissy cuckold in chastity for my cuckoldress, and she has as many sexual partners as she desires. I serve my cuckoldress anyway she desires me to; sexually and non-sexually. For my cuckoldress's lovers I serve them in a 100% receptive female role by performing fellatio or by being penetrated anally.
Technically I am a "Troilist"
The behavior of voluntarily and knowingly inducing one’s
partner to perform sexual acts with other people, to receive
emotional and sexual gratification, is labeled with the English
term (but of French derivation) improper, derogatory and
incorrect of “cuckolding”, also if the correct terminology of
clinical matrix is “troilism” [1,2].
Why I feel that I am a "Troilist"
I am inadequate as a male partner for a female, I have no desire to perform sexually like a man, I only desire to perform sexually in the female-role, and be a receptive partner for heterosexual males, yet primarily I desire to be a female-surrogate partner for large intact male dogs and intact male equines, I've always been mostly sexually attracted to large intact male dogs and intact male equines. My primary sexual orientation is "female-roled receptive zoosexual"
I need to be Dominated and sexually Objectified by others, it can be males or females, for example I like to be strap-on pegged by females, told by females to perform cunninglingus.
I certainly think there is a element of "vicarious sexual arousal" when seeing a female I deeply care for having sex with a male dog, male equine or human male
I'm a sexually masochistic cuckold type with females that I love...my Mom, Elle etc.
Wanting to be cuckolded is considered a form of emotional masochism. While not all cuckolds are into masochism, sexual masochism disorder can be distressing and disabling. Cuckold fetishism involves deriving pleasure from being humiliated and imagining partners being sexually fulfilled in ways they alone cannot provide......I can never be a Real Man for a wife/girlfriend
"I'm a female-roled male"...I can never be a true Man....I'm completely psychologically feminized/emasculated, I have to perform sexual like I'm a female.
In contrast, if a person with sexually masochistic desires declares no distress, anxiety, guilt, or shame, about these paraphilic impulses, and are not hampered by them in the course of daily life, they could be determined to have masochistic sexual interest but should not be diagnosed with sexual masochism disorder.
