Third-gender Artist Model
22 years experience as a life drawing artist's model
50 years as a submissive sissy femboy
I identify as a:
Pre-Op homosexual transsexual
berdache/third-gender type
100% female-roled receptive male
Preferential "Class X" submissive 100% female-roled receptive zoosexual from 1970-2000
(I became celibate as a zoosexual in 2000)
I consider my core identity to be a submissive Preferential female-roled receptive zoosexual for large intact male dogs and intact male equines.
Psychologically I have a "Pre-Op" Male to Female Homosexual Transexual Identity
The reason I refer to myself as "third-gender" is because I am physically a male, yet psychologically I feel like a female.
I've been a owned-collared "free Use" submissive, 100% female-roled femboy
since 1975
I got caged in 1999, I am 100% psychologically feminized/emasculated
"In 2000 I started serving only human males sexual"
("I only model wearing a cage")
This is a Web Journal
It is intented to figure my own self out better, why I am who I am
though this is the exhibitionistic
element for me
because I am a
"exhibitionist"
I truly love modeling and modeling for artist has no erotic element for me.
My questions I've struggled with all my life,
why do I need treated sexually like a female.
"And wish to be Female"
Many questions
The content is intended for educational, research and journaling purposes Much of the content is in Scenario Form
thus whether fact or fiction, is by interpretation.
If only;
"How things could of turned out dilemma"
"Like a thought experiment of sorts"
or
" Some aspects based on fact "
" A hodgepodge script "
"Thought experiment"
"Like an Actor preparing for a script in order to be convincing"
"A Study and Outline for my Novels;
fiction novel: "The Jensen Group"
and
"No One needs to be an another more then the Transsexual, No One needs another more then the Exhibitionist"
(a life as a submissive female-roled receptive zoosexual)
" As much as Life Drawing can express Reality, it can express Fantasy "
NSFW
contains nudity and sexual content
A journey of "Living vicariously in a imagined scenario"
All videos, photos, gifs
are for illustrative purposes
established
FEBRUARY 19th, 2020
Contact at;
note: most of the imagery on my site is for illustrative purposes to illustrate how I became completely psychologically feminized/emasculated and how my identity revolves around the need to be female-roled both sexually and non-sexually.
Forever editing the site
Can't be a Man/Can't be a Woman
and
Eroticization of shame, patheticism and inadequate as a man
My Ballerina Halloween outfit at age 4
Gender dysphoria is a feeling of distress that can happen when a person's gender identity differs from the sex assigned at birth.
Some transgender and gender-diverse people have gender dysphoria at some point in their lives. Other transgender and gender-diverse people feel at ease with their bodies and gender identities, and they don't have gender dysphoria.
A diagnosis for gender dysphoria is included in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5). The DSM-5 is published by the American Psychiatric Association. The diagnosis was created to help people with gender dysphoria get access to the healthcare and treatment that they need. A diagnosis of gender dysphoria focuses on the feeling of distress as the issue, not gender identity.
Symptoms
Gender identity is having the internal sense of being male or female or being somewhere along the gender spectrum, or having an internal sense of gender that is beyond male and female. People who have gender dysphoria feel a big difference between their gender identity and their sex assigned at birth. Gender dysphoria is different from simply not following stereotypical gender behaviors. It involves feelings of distress due to a strong, lasting desire to be another gender.
Gender dysphoria might start in childhood and continue into the teen years and adulthood. But some people may have periods of time in which they don't notice gender dysphoria. Or the feelings may seem to come and go. Some people have gender dysphoria when puberty starts. In others, it may not develop until later in life.
Some teens might express their feelings of gender dysphoria to their parents or a healthcare professional. But others might have symptoms of a mood disorder, anxiety or depression instead. Or they might have social difficulties or problems in school
Complications
Gender dysphoria can affect many parts of life, including daily activities. For example, school might be hard for people with gender dysphoria. That may be due to pressure to dress or act in a way that's linked to their sex assigned at birth. Being harassed, teased or bullied due to gender identity also can make it very challenging to do well in school.
If gender dysphoria makes school or work very hard, the result may be dropping out of school or not being able to find a job. Gender dysphoria can pose problems within relationships. Anxiety, depression, self-harm, eating disorders, substance misuse and other mental health concerns can happen too.
People who have gender dysphoria often are the targets of discrimination and prejudice. That can lead to ongoing stress and fear. This is called gender minority stress.
Accessing healthcare services and mental health services may be hard. This can be due to a lack of insurance coverage, being refused care, trouble finding a healthcare professional with expertise in transgender care or fear of discrimination in healthcare settings.
People with gender dysphoria who don't receive the support and treatment they need are at higher risk of thinking about or attempting suicide.
Gender dysphoria care at Mayo Clinic
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I've always thought the Gender dysphoria played a major role in my remaining a female-roled receptive zoosexual and my relationship with Edward my jack donkey and Cosso may Great Dane may have played a major role in saving my life, as I had their constant companionship in 1975 at end of 7th grade year at school age 13, after being publicly humiliated day after day at school for being a feminine homosexual.
Other than Mom, Aunt Becky I felt I could trust no one with the secret that I was feminine homosexual (completely female-roled receptive). Both Aunt Becky and Mom were the only people who had known that I was a female-roled receptive zoosexual and had known since 1971.
By then I very much knew I could never be like a real man or a woman.
After which time I had developed severe Checking/Obsessive Thoughts OCD, which the symptoms were, I had to double/triple check everything single thing I did, for example one day I walked all the way to school, then thought about "I did lock the back door when I left", it was a 15 minute walk to school yet I had to run all the way home just so I could check the back door to see if it was locked!, of course it was locked because I checked it 2 or 3 times before I could even leave the yard, then the Obsessive Thoughts on top of that, it was thoughts of anything got in my head and stuck for days on end, could be a specific a song, a person, place or thong then switched to a another it was non-stop for over a year, madness was truly setting in and suicide was a constant thought by about 9 months, then by a years' time it was as if I woke from sleep one morning and realize the OCD had gone away.
Also at which time Edward, Cosso and Myself moved to my Aunt Becky farm to live, as well as started attend the Jensen Group school.
Coming to terms with the fact that I was forever to be a female-roled receptive wanta be transsexual.
and
most likely a female-role receptive zoosexual
Yes,
I have always only
taken the female role,
I'm 100% female-roled
How old where you
when you started
sucking cock
and
started getting butt-fucked
I started sucking my jack donkey's cock
when I was 7 yrs old.
A guy
started getting
butt-fucked
when I was 8 yrs old
A guy started
butt-fucking you ?
