Third-gender Artist Model
22 years experience as a life drawing artist's model
50 years as a submissive sissy femboy
I identify as a:
Pre-Op homosexual transsexual
berdache/third-gender type
100% female-roled receptive male
Preferential "Class X" submissive 100% female-roled receptive zoosexual from 1970-2000
(I became celibate as a zoosexual in 2000)
Former female-roled
receptive zoosexual
1970 to 2000
From 1970 to 2000, I consider my core identity to be a submissive Preferential female-roled receptive zoosexual for large intact male dogs and intact male equines.
Psychologically I have a "Pre-Op" Male to Female Homosexual Transexual Identity
The reason I refer to myself as "third-gender" is because I am physically a male, yet psychologically I feel like a female.
I've been a owned-collared "free Use" submissive, 100% female-roled femboy
since 1975
I got caged in 1999, I am 100% psychologically feminized/emasculated
"In 2000 I started serving only human males sexual"
("I only model wearing a cage")
It is intented to figure my own self out better, why I am who I am
though this is the exhibitionistic
element for me
because I am a
"exhibitionist"
I truly love modeling and modeling for artist has no erotic element for me.
My questions I've struggled with all my life,
why do I need treated sexually like a female.
"And wish to be Female"
Many questions
The content is intended for educational, research and journaling purposes Much of the content is in Scenario Form
thus whether fact or fiction, is by interpretation.
If only;
"How things could of turned out dilemma"
"Like a thought experiment of sorts"
or
" Some aspects based on fact "
" A hodgepodge script "
"Thought experiment"
My Web Journal
"Like an Actor preparing for a script in order to be convincing"
"A Study and Outline for my Novels;
fiction novel: "The Jensen Group"
and
"No One needs to be an another more then the Transsexual, No One needs another more then the Exhibitionist"
(a life as a submissive female-roled receptive zoosexual)
" As much as Life Drawing can express Reality, it can express Fantasy "
NSFW
contains nudity and sexual content
A journey of "Living vicariously in a imagined scenario"
All videos, photos, gifs
are for illustrative purposes
established
FEBRUARY 19th, 2020
Contact at;
note: most of the imagery on my site is for illustrative purposes to illustrate how I became completely psychologically feminized/emasculated and how my identity revolves around the need to be female-roled both sexually and non-sexually.
Forever editing the site
My identity is clearly defined vicariously
(feminine homosexual/wanta be transsexual)
I want to be
like Her!
My first experience with "vicarious identity" and "Compersion" was watching my mom having sex, I quickly knew I wanted to be like her and see her having fun.
"I vicariously wanted to be sucking his cock like she was"
The above scene is a type of "scoptophilic sexual arousal" because I'd love to be in that scene doing what she is doing.
In psychology and psychiatry, scopophilia or scoptophilia (Ancient Greek: σκοπέω skopeō, "look to", "to examine" + φῐλῐ́ᾱ philíā, "the tendency towards") is an aesthetic pleasure drawn from looking at an object or a person. In human sexuality, the term scoptophilia describes the sexual pleasure that a person derives from looking at prurient objects of eroticism, such as pornography, the nude body, and fetishes, as a substitute for actual participation in a sexual relationship. Wikipedia
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the obtaining of sexual pleasure by looking at nude bodies, erotic photographs, etc.
Also could be called a visual type of "vicarphilia"
meaning of vicarphilia: vicarious arousal, sexual arousal from other peoples exciting actions, experiences and behaviors
scoptophilia ; describes the sexual pleasure that a person derives from looking at prurient objects of eroticism, such as pornography, the nude body, and fetishes, as a substitute for actual participation in a sexual relationship.
Because I prefer to only be a female-roled sex partner for Male canines and equines
it makes defining my sexual orientation.
"All I know is my Male canines and equines partners had a great ability to make me feel very female"
I don't feel that I am of the Autogynephilia type
I'm sexually attracted to males, thus I wish I could have a female body, yet I don't fantasize about actually being female, only looking very effeminate in order to display that I am 100% female sexually roled for male.
The term autogynephilia (auto for self, gyne for female, philia for desire, often shortened AGP) refers to a psychological condition in which a man (usually heterosexual) derives sexual or even "romantic" pleasure from the fantasy of being female.
Autogynephilia (derived from Greek for "love of oneself as a woman"[13][a]) is a term coined by Blanchard[14][28][15] for "a male's propensity to be sexually aroused by the thought of himself as a female",[13][29] intending for the term to refer to "the full gamut of erotically arousing cross-gender behaviors and fantasies".[13] Blanchard states that he intended the term to subsume transvestism, including for sexual ideas in which feminine clothing plays only a small or no role at all.[30] Other terms for such cross-gender fantasies and behaviors include automonosexuality, eonism, and sexo-aesthetic inversion. -Wikipedia
I truly have always had an intense desire to get pregnant
If there were a surgery available so that I could of got pregnant by my male dog partners
I would have been in line to get such a surgery, then breast feed the puppies.
I've spent a tremendous amount of time in "thought experiments" trying to figure out how I feel about my sexual orientation, my identity as a person and one major question has been is "am I sexually attracted to females?", my conclusion is no, I idealize them, idolize them due the fact that I so much desire to be a female.
It was like Mom was cuckolding me, I was excited seeing her having sex
The Psychology Behind The Cuckold Fantasy-pdf
Mom died in 1987 of a heart defect
